all alone?

Hello.
Well, maybe to only Gauri, since she seems to be my only loyal reader as usual.
Like Glenn said '' Sometimes, life just sucks eh?''
It's SO TRUE.So,do not worry. It sucks, SOMETIMES.[how positive]
Well, it's almost 30 days to O level.[ BREATHING DIFFICULTY, AFTER A LONG RECOVERY TIME...]YEAP, 30 DAYS TO MY NIGHTMARE! Just can't believe it. I studied with my cousin at his house over the weekend at Choa Chu Kang and I would say, that type of studying environment makes you want to study even more.it's just super duper tense.

Anyways,I was just thinking again. My dad said I have the lousiest attitude at home.He says my 'HATE EVERYTHING' attitude will result in me suffering in life, in the future and I'll not be any successful if I carry 'this' attitude with me.He says I behave exactly like this WOMAN whom I hate, KIM LIAN.She's OLD and she is MEAN on top of that, she has a very traditional chinese mindset of how boys are treasures.I mean, seriously, what can boys do? I can do what most boys can do. Boys are only a bunch of egoistic animal that are extremely annoying.[right? unless you can change my mind] As I was saying, my dad said my terrible attitude of rebutting to everything they say is the worst and trying to stand up for myself is wrong as well.When I said I hate this or that and how they are practicing favouritism at home, they will scold me for being insesitive and tell me that I am behaving like Kim Lian. He say I will be ALL BY MYSELF in the future, I will grow old and cranky and nobody will like me at alI.That is also because I am not going to get married, I will grow old alone and become something like KIM LIAN. I am scared, even I do not like her. What if I really become something I hate? I believe I do not need anyone like I always tell the boys,' Do I look like I need help?' yeah man... I am going to prove my daddy WRONG.

wish me luck.

Weared out by life.

Life has never offered me a near perfect moment. All I want is some peaceful moments where the demanding society stops, slows and just take a break. That will most probably not happen till my O levels end. I just cried in the car while going to school this morning because i felt so upset and dissapointed that they were so inconsiderate of my feelings. The sarcasm, the harsh words, that look in their eyes and the love you cannot see from their faces. I am a human not a machine. I really cannot go on this way, I will crash and fall.


All i need to find is Yoon Ji Hoo or Gu Jun Pyo. I share the same birthday as the actress who played Geum Jan Di. :D

ABC

FOR MY BELOVED GAURO.

ENJOYIT!

The Beatles.

I'm SOOOO going to get that Beatles compiled special edition CD.
It just brings back fantastic memories of my childhood. All the singing in the car together. Not to forget how it is actually GOOD music. And The Beatles is definitley a legend.

Here's a song from them.:D
I want to hold your hand.



P.s I bought Colbie Caillat's Album .

The baby in the bus:

Today, when I took a bus from bukit timah to toa pah yoh, I saw a little boy in a pram staring in my direction right after he boarded. He was ALL SMILES. He looked so adorable! He just sat there in his pram staring all over the bus curiously, then the baby and I made eye contact. We were staring into each others eye and his was filled with lots of innocence, eyes that still have lots to see and learn. He continued smiling at me and when I finally smiled back widely at him, he gave out a loud chuckle which caused most of the bus commuters to turn and look at what the baby boy was looking at. Although it was kind of silly ... I was actully quite happy because he made my day. I will never forget this baby! I WANT A BABY! except I have to adopt one then. :D

this bond between us, cant be broken.

I'm SOOOO Tired, rushing art is definitely not fun. I regret. PROCRASTINATION. D:
Anyway, Here's another one of those song I LOVE.



Yep, Phil Collins fantastic voice and oh sooooo hot Tarzan.


Not going to let some things bother me. I treasured you as a friend. I kept quiet at moments where I could have been irritated. But, don't you think you are going too far? You need to search yourself and self reflect a lot about this. SOMETIMES... YOU JUST DON'T GET IT. EVEN FOR ME. I myself commit mistakes that I might not be aware of. So, I'm not going to blame anyone for this.

Yellow Submarine~

Yes, This is Yellow Submarine by The Beatles! My favourite song to sing along when I was young



HEY, Jesse's new Music video.* cheeky smiles*
BODY LANGUAGE FEATURING T-PAIN!

100th POST!

HELLO. This is my 100th post!
I've been wanting to save this post for something more special, BUT I CAN'T WAIT.

Happy Birthday to my dad who claims and offered to give me a blackberry when i clearly didn't ask for one.

The holiday is clearly not a holiday at all right?

I need a long long break to calm my nerves. Everything is wrong about me, I eat slower, I eat last at every meal, HOW CAN THIS BE POSSIBLE. My ferocious APPETITE is GONE and that is SCARY. I didn't go out with any of my schoolmates this holiday, neither did I study with them. I went to school everyday, YOU GOT ME, EVERYDAY to do my Art Coursework. [ I just need to complete it ]

I only went out ONE DAY. That was Wednesday. I went from almost extreme East to almost extreme West to meet my friends for lunch then to go for my tuition. It was worth it, after all, it has been almost 10 long months since I met them. It was nice to meet them and still have so much nonsense to talk about. Although we didn't realy have anything to do, it was nice meeting them. - Awesome people wear awesome clothes- It is weird to like meet them alone initially, after all the scandal nonsense and it has been 10 long months after all. AND THEY ARE REALLY REALLY NONSENSICAL! Well, tuition was really fun too. I was called INNOCENT. :D totally am. * winks *
During tuition, my mama called me to ask me to go to Outram to visit my ahgong who was in hospital because of Gall Stones. ;( [ He's fine now (; ] SO, since I was going to outram and so was he, I met up with the friend i had lunch with for dinner with his mum at chinatown while waiting for my mum. VERY NICE MUM.My mum has this delay delay problem. After dinner I made my way to find my grandad. WELL, HE SAY I'M GROWING TOO FAT. We also had some discussions about what I want to do in the future and I realized that there was A LOT I want in life. I jokingly told them I want to be a Young rich Mistress [ SHAO NAI NAI] and my Grandmother couldn't stop laughing... she told me to find a good spouse then. They said I'm the most well behaved grand daugther [ I'm their oldest] and my granfather said if I get married he must drink the tea or something... But I told them about my plans and they said it's good I'm sensible to not like boys now and that I should start dating at 18 or something and they don't mind me not getting married. :D

That was about the only day I went out.

Being rather annoyed by some people who judge too much...
We shouldn't because we are not fit to. GET IT?
SOME PEOPLE just do not!