i don't like!

Seriously, I do know that I'm a vice-head prefect in school. yes i do. and so much for leadership responsibility. I really miss being an ordinary student, free from all these leadership responsibilities, and be free to be who I really am, what i want to do, or say.

I do not like to be pressurized or put into a dilemma by just using my leadership role to suppress me. I mean, come on right? I'm a human too.

'' I mean seriously, as a leader i would expect you to...''
Whatever! Stop using this against me.

everyday, all the time, anytime.

I doubt my own capabilities... i do.

Smile& my worries will disappear ;D i'llkeepsmiling!

You Are a Mediator

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist. A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around. You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you. You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people. Your strength: Your devotion Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness Your power color: Lilac Your power symbol: Heart Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years. You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian. Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love Your gemstone: Citrine Your flower: Chrysanthemum Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

yumm.

YUMM YUMM. had a satisfying prata meal.     =)

i did not sleep at all last night. i couldn't, all thanks to Gloria Jeans Coffee.

stayed up practically all night, except for some eye shut around 2-3 am.

sat up all night and thought about the recent happenings...

felt upset, felt happy.

finally went to school... for OGL stuff. 

spent the afternoon with Gauri at Parkway Parade.

went to borders, got my book. TRUST NO ONE. 

can't stand not having a book around with me, i feel so weird, right after reading THE GIFT by cecelia ahern, not too bad.

p.s. IDIOTIC WILLIAM, I've got the TRIUMPH CARD.

 whatever everybody has to say about chemistry.

p.s.s ELIZA, what was the joke?

p.s.s.s. I know secrets!

she has something to say.

seriously, i dun mind being insulted, compared to my sister or anything.
after all, I've been living with this for so many years.

aiyoyo, Ur sister so pretty.
-person who says this will turn to look at me
aiya, you not bad also la.

all these comments, so typical all the time. i got immuned.

excuse me, i do not care if I'm pretty or not. i do not care if I'm tall or not. i do not.
but as my mother you should not do this. I'm your daughter too! I know I'm not pretty enough to be your daughter. i know.
but you do not have to insult me.
- you think you very pretty ah?
it do affect me. why did you have to ask such a question? are you fulfilling your duty as a mother to insult your own daughter. After all, is looks so important to you? why?

all these years, i can still clearly remember what happened.
what happened at the party.
mom to friend : hello, this is my daughter[younger sis]
friend: oh ya, pretty like you, sure can tell.
mom to friend:this is also my daughter[ me]
friend: you sure this is your daughter ? don't look like you leh. [ i'm sure you know what she meant]
mom begins laughing.

seriously, i got so used to all these, very used to. i know i'm not pretty enough to be your daughter. i know... but all these passer-by remarks, you can stilll laugh at them and joke about it.
have you ever thought about defending me? no. because its a praise to you and your daughter.

i know that i'm ugly.[ talk about self- confidence]

your son is a frikkin ah beng and you still defend him. I worked so hard, behaved myself, but i never got praised, but you will make use of this to show-off...my daugther did well in her exams, she's a vice-head, but behind, you nvr praise me to me... you scold me day and night for not being a fantastic sister to your precious son and daughter.

and i know i'm not a fantastic grand daughter.
stop insulting me. stop making yourself sound likee i've been bullying you. you tell the whole world how bad a grand daughter i've been. but do you know all these insults you've been throwing me? you tell the whole world I talk on the phone with my 'boyfriend' you tell everyone i go out all day long with my ' boyfriend' but what are these? all crap. i dun even talk on the phone. not unless it's cristal. and i go out with so many people. why must you always make me sound so cheap. I've been living with this ok. you tell my father, you tell my aunties, you tell the whole world. you make my father scold me... I know you are going to ask him to throw me out. so, pls do... i cant stay a second longer...

free me from this misery.

when i went to OBS this march, i packed my bags, and you asked, why she pack bags? running away from home? run away with man is it?

you know what? although it was not said in chinese nor english, i understood...

continue to put me down. work harder women.[ my mother and paternal granmother]
i'll stay strong.

bored .

YEAH, its like 2 more days before i can finally meet the SMART SALLEHS again. to know more abt everybody, read haziqah's blog! Reading haziqah'a blog make me feel like crying, because i really really miss them. I don't expect everyone or anyone to really read the previous post because it's just for my memory sake, i dont want to forget this trip ever and while it's still in my mind, i shall have it written...
BTW:
-eliza read the whole post. HAHAHAH.
-and yes, its a really long post.
-- syarifah aqilah, i did update MORE.
- and yes haziqah, twin brother, cos i refuse to acknowledge him as elder when he is 3 days younger and he refuse to acknowledge me as elder as i'm immature... get it?
- AND YES GAURI's a BOAR! a wild boar... HAHAHA. =p

i miss OBS!
HAZIQAH, i swear i'll never forget you. NEVER. i'll never forget anyone...

OBS Sabah

I have a sudden urge to talk about my days in Sabah.

day1.
tiring trip there. i just cant concentrate or be quiet, i mean that's me right?
I was not very social, just stuck around with haziqah, Kim and Ziying all day.
Tried reading in the bus to senai airport, half successful... disturbed by poker card people. then started being noisy with haziqah.
then reached the ''oh-so beautiful- airport''
had the''oh-so-tasty marry brown''
socializing began until Mr. Daniel Tay made me talk to the MGS girls, cos he thought i didn't like them when we had to check in together,but in order to prove him wrong, i went up to say hi! which was kinda stupid, because i think they thought i was stupid. & bt. Merah's t'cher, ms. Eng said hi as she thought i was very noisy i suppose... and introduced me to her student, zhixiong a.k.a bear as i got to know him better during the 12 days. [marcus look alike]
air-plane ride, wow, hot steward i swear. me and haziqah were crazy! hahaha, no offence but he is HOT. [to me at least]
reached sabah late at night. had dinner, sorted groups,
then i interacted by saying hi to people, they asked for my name, so a guy went like HI CHERYL! and i went , ''ok, hi to whoever he is.'' which became a big thing because i did not noe vijay's name then... then get ready to sleep. cant sleep lah! it was so dark! then they went like,opening eyes is like closing eyes, wad the hell. so, it was a sleepless night for me as i was very scared of the dark.

day2.
woke up for PT. GRR!. but it was a jog by the beach, so i was ok with it... then after that we had a group change. haziqah changed with one of the MGS girl in my group as the MGS girls wanted to be together. so yah... my group consist of, Haziqah, Elan,Aaron.chun keong, marcus, sherman,vijay,syazleena, Eliza,Wah Long and ME.
with my fantastic instructors, Rosli and cath. we had team bonding games which was quite fun i wld say... OH MY BALL! HAHA. one of our grp jokes. learned to pitch tent, make fire pit and collect fire wood.
then we went for a trek up a nearby hill.already killing me... my group was kind of blur... then came back and prepared for our jungle expedition... OMYOMY. group 3 will be with group 4. Kinabalu and Mat Salleh.
Group 1 and 2 seperated... like aiyoyo... kim was seperated from us... another almost sleepless night as my mind wandered arnd wildly...

day3-5
yah this is it man... the jungle expedition. one of the toughest yet.dun think of it as the ubin one. cos after this, that will just be a walk in the park... Big Backpack checked, tongkat checked, screams[for leeches] checked.i wonder what else i need... then we set out in a van... i nvr want to get down... was the sweeper for the day. YEAH.walked behind. i didn't wanna feel the pressure of the front. then we walk and walk.... and i enjoyed myself... cos i was talking singing and entertaining myself. making weird remarks to myself... when i fall, i just stood back up and said ''i'm okay, not dead yet.'' had packed lunch by river. refilled jerry cans. put in aquatabs, the water tastes like swimming pool water... PUI. that was roughly how our milo tasted too...collecting water was so damn frikkin difficult, fell...with jerry cans in my hand. thanks sherman for your help...slept squashed in the tent that night. 2nd day, we had a few sick ppl,became navigator that day. sucks sia urgh! was blur lah! and my map was badly torn.... was terribly worried about leech bites...GAH! then reach campsite,wat a Fking campsite, pissed me off badly... termites nest, ant's nest... spiders. wadeva.. LEECHES. allowed to bath in river. WEE! when we were bathing, upstream, our dear boys were washing pots and pans, so where do the detergent water go??! idiots right!? haha. bathed and went back up to prepare dinner... started raining, didn't sleep, so gossiped... with marcus, aaron[he listened to the mjr gossips]
haziqah and eliza. haha.[andrina ah andrina ,eat tofu ah...] then fell asleep. its called sentry duty. get it? bacame leader the next morning, as we embark on a short trip to the end of our journey! i'm so glad. then we finally reach the end... it was like HEAVEN. then we walked on as grp3 got the van... then we took photo with ziying, talked to her then our group walked. i was fine with the walking lah... but it was hot and sunny. then halfway, we got the van!

day5 extended to 6.
finally reached our village home. tere were lots of children...so adorable! and animals, which puts of the other girls in my grp... syaz was okay with the cat... haha. nvm, then i went to take a bath. the boys are dumb! a small spider and they make it sound so horrible... haha.as the leader of the day, i helped out much, i prepared lunch, then helped out with dinner. i swear the boys are great cooks man! especially VIJAY!.. my god, i miss his chicken wings. and i had lots of fun entertaining the children. now i miss them... i learn to converse with them in malay... then we had to prepare for cultural night. yup, it was like a night-walk to the other village house... OH GOD. was quite afraid...met with ziying! yep, their hse was okay lah, not like ours, ours was more homely... then we interact with the other grp mates, then another grp of students came to interact with us, cultural exchange ya know... so they performed and we played, friendship dance... then there was a finale? god, yuck to the worms man. or rather grubs... grace[a mgs girl ate one] aaron. vijay and elan ate it too...yuck much? apparently so... then a weird guy whacked me in my arm in a funny motion and asked me to eat the worm. i asked him' why the hell you hitting me?' then he went 'cos you not from my grp mah' that guy was, apparently, BENEDICT.night over, back village home, slept peacefully.
woke up, prepared breakfast for them... cooked like 15- 16 packets of maggi mee... yup. maggi mee and me...
returned back to obsabah for mountain expedition briefing and preparation... played giants ladder. i'm sorry but i was really mad, i was laughing untill vijay almost killd me... lost 12 bucks to sherman!. i remembered we had a briefing, thats all i guess. we had review sessions where ppl said that, no cheryl no life in grp.. woo! i'm supposed to be proud right?! i think we shared our dirty jokes this day...

day 7
went to halleluyah retreat centre for the day, as we took a rather long ride there, went shoppingon the way there for gifts, bought shirts went arnd playing, Keith and sherman [dunman high boys]and i bought keychains which cost 4 ringgitt and somebody else bought it for 3... GRR! hahaha, wadeva lah...the place was nice, spent time in swing, took photos.. played like crazy girls... bullied aaron as benedict and i went arnd catching moths to scare aaron. the boys all think i'm dirty cos i told them some dirty joke i heard from campteen and hongwei... then they were like, you lok so innocent, inside is like DIRTY. aiyoyo.SHERMAN LAH! he started it. went toprepare dinner, in charge of the onions. yep. haha. didn't really cry... the rest did... HAHAHA. after that we sat round sharing jokes. just jokes.... slept very comfortably...

day8
yeah, finally the day we embaark on our journey to the top. haha. woke up, went to find the guys took our food. and as our grp, MAT SALLEH was in charge of b'fast, had to wake up earlier... sobs.while in the kitchen i found out benedict was 3 days younger than me. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.[but, saggitarians are COOL] i personally cooked 30 packets of maggi. which is mad cos i hate maggi now.. after all the maggi we have had for the jungle trek and homestay. BHLEX!
after b'fast, sat on a bus to bring us to our starting point. had a deja'vu in the bus with ziying...
climb up was bad, my foot seemed to lost its life.. was quite clumsy my way up. finally after a tideous climb, 6 km upwards... we reached laban rata guest house for a rest and buffet dinner. WEEH! haha. had a tiff with the mat salleh boys...cos they were laughing at me... then i just said''i'm not talking to mat salleh anymore, except haziqah'' out of a little anger. then i turned away, benedict started to talk to me, he said that i was just stubborn i definitely will start talking to them after awhile, so they bet i will speak to them before tml b'fast. the n i just refuse to give in to their bets, so we just kept joking arnd and then andy [andy is our singapore instructor that followed us to obsabah]wanted me to play games with mat salleh and the whole team was disturbing me, probing me to talk to them... i went to sit with the instructors... then rosli! that rosli had to disturb me... told johnny also.. untill i have no peace... and so they begin. =.=FINALLY, after being teased and probed i finally talked to them, my first words were, WAH LONG. i cant rmb why i called him... continued after dinner to our hut for rest... slept at 7.30 pm

day 9
woke up at 1.30 am. woo hoo! cool right? drank a cup of cereal.. then soon around 2.30 we got ready to scale up to the SUMMIT! yeahhe... tiring sia, and very dark, every step needs to be taken with care. when we were holding on to the rope, i felt very scared, very very very... it was like walking up the wall... and you see nothing but the rocks at your feel and the wet rope we had to hold on to... when we finally reach our entrance for our last part of our journey,[i went to the toilet, i asked haziqah to help me hold water bottle and she accidentally passed it to someone else to hold it for me thinking he was sherman] i thought things will be way easier, but no! it was tougher... on my way up, the tought of giving up came to my mind... i was struggling with haziqah...i was helped up by the guides. they gave us nicknames . Haziqah's was Maziqah and mine's Asparagus.weird much. then after being helped up halfway. i told myself i cannot miss this sunrise... that's why i woke up early... so i slowly paced myself all the way in front, leaving the rest behind and tried to catch up.. i was alone for a little while and i was scared... sallehan went down as he had AMS, so i thought there might be ppl in front.. so i continued my lone scale...until finally, i heard andy's voice.. then i realised benedict, ziying and andy were there in front of me, they were waiting for me..., they know i was there cos of my red jacket. ziying was not feeling well so benedict and andy were there to help her. i joined them to climb up.finally, with help from benedict... ziying and i managed our way up! WEE! haha. i caught the most beautiful sunrise ever in my life. i was cold but i didnt care... HAHAHA.it was damn cool man, glad to say, maziqah made it! finally, we had to go back down. went down with chun kheong, aaron and benedict. actually there were more people... like emirah, fitri and etc. it was very scary going down. very steep... and i was so scared i will fall [ like elan's dream- tell u ltr] reached the layang layang hut, met with sallehan, asked if he wanted to go down with us, but it was better if he followed emirah and fitri... so, we went off first... another km or so downwards... oh crap... then we met with an english man, who was a singapore PR. we talked to him and soon beacme friends. halfway, mr chun kheong, our so called superman sped up and left us behind... so we finally reached our hut. as we did not have the key, we decided to just sit arnd and wait, johnny was there cos he was not feeling well. so, we sat around to play, and get disturbed.=.= when they finally arrived, we were all told to hurry pack up and leave to laban ratan guesthouse for b'fast. A lot of them not feeling well... like sherman, haziqah, eliza... they were scary alright... i thought coming down wld be easier... then we had b'fast.... haziqah was feeling better... but sherman wasn't gtting better, so andy got me to take porridge for sherman. which he didn't eat alot... then i stood behind to take care of sherman, he shared haziqah;s water bottle, so i took it or them... haziqah in front of me, sherman behind... and when rosli's around, i nvr get peace... his eyebrow, and his qns... tsk tsk tsk =.= sherman was like an ulti merlion... hahaha. and elan the loser was so so so so slow. GRR! [i always quarrel with him - not serious quarrels...] and he was whining so badly like a girl, as we cldnt stand it anymore, we deided to go first, so, sherman, haziqah and i decided to go first with permission from rosli as sherman wanted to descend faster. yep, so we chiong to the front, they took a long time... then for the rest of the journey, we stayed in front, took rest at huts and climbed the dunno how many million steps to finally get down and reach the bus... from there, we changed bus. in this bus, i had to take my late lunch, as it was rather shaky, i cldnt find the appetie to eat, and i was cold, so i fell asleep for awhile. then haziqah suddenly went, cheryl, its coming out. then i got shocked and i stood up, ''i need plastic bag!'' then, as i was getting plastic bags for her, grace needed one too... and so did eliza and syazleena... OH GOD... then i had to stay awake to take care of them as i attended to them, i was half dozing off, tired and hungry and cold... finally, we reached OBSABAH after a long long long time... went to have dinner, got hot drink for my three patients and went to get food for them. went to take a bath and got ready to sleep, i guess... slept soundly this time...

day 10

wake up and got ready for the sailing expedition. sailing sailing here we go...

didn't even get to sail as we were towed there.... crap right? it was due to bad weather... so we got to island, pitched tent, HAHAHAHA. i had a very funny experience pitching tent, hearing al these words from sherman's mouth... [my*toot* is thicker than that]as he comments abt the pegs,[what shit peg is this?!] and making haziqah look like a total MJ... set up kitchen and got back on boat for a short row practice... the ores were frrikkinn heavy...and, after that, mr rosli created an abandon boat drill... hahaha, all of us had to jump into the water... it was LAME. hahaha, played catching in the water...then got ready to cook dinner... [i think i had deja'vu typing this...] as i was practically useful for only picking firewood, and the very useful boys cooked. i went all out to collect firewood, collecting more than 10 rounds... after that ,i just loitered around the beach to pick shells with aaron and benedict. Then went back to help out with dinner[if anything cld be helped]

then we sat down in the dark for our sumptuous dinner... chicken was great...vege was not too bad... eggs were good too...then since we had so much leftover of firewood, we had a mini bonfoire session with the grp3 ppl... wee! so fun, we sang songs, syang kinabalu, sallehan sang a solo, we did the friendship dance[ i know they sabo me!=.=],did the hokey pokey, chachikucha, making melodies... and did doraemon team song!... oh, and haziqah did her soulja boy solo, MJ style... HAHAHA.[i know they tried to sabo me. but i was lucky, i didn't realise it only untill i think back about it...] nurul haziqah, Can i have this dance eh? so after a debrief session, which was rather sad... i headed out to the beach fro sentry duty. i decided not to sleep as i saw cockroaches around... and when i went back, everyone woke to the disgust of multiple and infinite sand fly bites... like syaz,her hands, bear, his whole FACE. and he was so angry, he cursed and swear...so we headed back to the beach instead... after awhile, aaron fell asleep, haziqah and ziying and eliza had their sec 4 talk at a corner, vj was talking to them as well... and syaz fell asleep too... leaving only benedict and me awake. then the tide was coming in, so we had to evacuate to another dry spot... we had to wake everyone to move... so, once we moved, the sec 4 girls stopped talking and slept like... aaron slept like one big pig! then i cldn't really fall asleep... but the view was nice, the moon looked so beautiful, the sky was dotted with stars and on the other side of the island, they had fireworks, cool right?! so i sat there, feeling so cold, a blue blanket wrapped around me as i finally fell asleep for 2 hours at 3 or 4 after watching the moon set...

day 11.

woke up arnd 5 plus... and caught the a beautiful sunrise... from our view, we cld see mt. K too... it was beautiful... but not as beautiful as the mt.k one... went back to help prepare b'fast... maggi again... crapp lah, then made one with onions specially for rosli... when i went to find him, he was burning bread.- not toasting, burning... HAHAHA. packed up, and we were ready to sail back. we had to row majority of the way back.... which was tiring... i was dying in my seat.. i wanted water but cldn't get any... was semi-concious at my seat. cldnt open my eyes.. wanted water badly but nobody gave me... sad right?

finally, after rowing halfway, we had to be towed back...HAHA.my favorite... just sit there doing nth... finally when we reached we did a thorough clean up. wohoo... saw kim and wished her happy birthday. the clean up was fun. then we had lunch. and we slacked around the afteroon, cant rmb what we did, it was the last night so i didn't really want to sleep. tried staying awake, sat outside with the few people who were at the beach and finally, went back in to slp... i had to embrace my fear of the dark to sleep. so i did, and slept...

day 12.

woke up early for final pt... WEE! so fun. and had solo reflection... which is really good... in 6 month time, i'll be getting my reflection back... hahaha. cant wait. then we had a final activity, rafting... then we bathed, packed up and had a so-called farewell party, and a early dinner... soon, we had to go... rosli sent us to the airport...rosli id the penguin dance...rechel and rosli teased me...=.= but ididnt say anything as i know we're abt to say gdbye to them which was sad... i admit that i did tear a little, becos i felt so sad i had to leave them ... i really missed them alot. saying goodbye is something i hate alot... alot... in the plane sat with my crap family... algae,bacteria,rubbish,trash,dirt, and i cant rmb...was it dust? nvm... who wld have thought. =.= assholes. then, we reached senai aiport...then we took a bus ride to the checkpoints. it was already late. very late. when we finally reached the obsecc, i stayed there for the night. 8 of us stayed. haziqah, ziying, kim and me. guowei,jeremy , benedict and aaron. mr tay treated us to macdonalds... ;) then at 4am, after eating, i went back to slp.

day 13.

woke up at 7. was the earliest... slacked arnd for half an hour, brushed my teeth wash my face, then jeremy woke up, guo wei woke up and so i sat outside talking to them, tried smsing gauri, but as a pig, i supposed she was still sleeping. then i did not join benedict and aaron for b'fast and headed back home with kim.. that was abt it. ;)

whew, long type!

just a few photos.

coming home!

i was talking to Mikey jackson.

thats me again! somebody's hat...

my new friend. in blue-benedict. in red- Aaron.

the red jacket. thats me ;)
I know it's BEAUTIFUL! i reached the TOP!


CULTURAL NIGHT! dancing a BIRD dance. i love the song.

crazy girls playing like crazy girls. L.O.V.E

sMArT salleh!
My hot and cool instructor.

These are photos of me from Aaron the underwear model's cam.
just bear with these few... ;)

because its aaron's camera, you see aaron arnd.

and benedict... my TWIn brother.

my photo orders jumbled.... hehehe.

back

Hello!
I'm back! yeah~
just to inform you all how it's been going : i'm FINE!
but i miss GAURI very very very very very very very very very very very much!
i shall update again once i get the photos, which will be a long time.

-there's so much to tell gauri!

to you, i might not be a fantastic grand- daughter, but to others, i am.

because you're not a fantastic grandmother either.

BITCH!

 'I'm so sorry.'

i feel terrible.

 

sometimes, i just do not understand how things go on in this world.

all the unreasonable people you face.

all the misunderstandings.

all the hatred.

all the unhappiness.

all the fighting.

ALL THE DAMNED PEOPLE YOU FACE.

all the discrimination.

all the things you dun like.

why?

i dunno.

i'm too simple minded for this.

&ireallymissedyou.

this song really speaks my heart.

ILY!

JOAN!

ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY!

Yeah! i LOVE YOU!

p.s.dun jealous la hazel. more than you.

to AQILAH!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. List 8 people out at the end of this post and tag them. Notify them at their chatboxes that he/ she has been tagged.

1. What have people done that will make you hate him/her the most?
to hate me.

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
eat.joke. laugh. play a fool

3. What kind of news do you read?
the comic strips!

4. What is your ultimate wish?
good O level reults.

5. Is there someone in your heart now?
all the time...

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
well, i can try, but its not gonna work eventually..

7. Are you afraid of pain?
both physically and emotionally? yeah.

8. What do you feel like doing now?
going to pee?

9. If there's someone you love, would you confess to him/ her?
no.

10. List 3 good points of the person that tagged you.
AQILAH!great dancer, great friend, pretty

11. What are 5 things you are most passionate about at this moment?
food, friends, porsche, that problem,prefects 

12. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
kinder bueno!
13. How tall am are you?
154cm TALL!

14. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
the sweeter, more feminine girly one? LIKE TOTALL OPPOSITE oF NOW!except for character?

or maybe that need to be changed too.

well, maybe more responsible?

15. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

oh, driving around streets in y beautiful porsche convertible.

16. What is the one thing that you love about yourself the most?
the crazy me. wild ,loud and bold.

17. (my own question) Have you regretted anything?
yeah, lots, like that problem.

18. If you're to return back to the past, what would you like to do?
to be different.

19. Tagged:
-Gauri[even if they did it]
-aqilah[even if they did it]
-Lionel
-Sha
-Jun Lin(i can't think of others)
-huda

-hazel ang!

hello bahabah

YO!
today today,
i went to mee toh.
MET A BOY.
a new boy.
he must love me!
haha
he gave me lollipop and he asked for my msn!
HAHA.
miss tan thinks that next year if he do come to MJR, i will get chased around by him, and so, there will be wei liang, zee yee and tjis boy called wei ming.
DIE ARH!
HAHA.
then went to watch house bunny with miss tan. eew, quite dirty lah, but funny!
HAHA! then went back to singpost for a meeting.
aiya. i tried calling sha, but nvr pick up, so i went home...
so now, i'll be in charge of a bit of the deco. HEehEe.
hahahaha.
i am still OBSESSED WITH CRUSH.
i liked it ever since i heard it.
i guessed it was the lyrics and the magic of archuleta's voice.
heehee. all the hots!
cant wait for sunday!
ttfn.

under stress

I think i might be too stressed or something....
i lost weight.
and my hair's all falling.
and i am having flu.

2 genting photos...

its just another post

well, i found time to update again...

well this week, was quite an eventful week, considering the nearing EOY...
and...
i went to Maha Bodhi School on Thursday and made a presentation...
WOOH!
I'm lovin' it...
the presentation went out well! students were super responsive and attentive!
went in super duper hunky Mr lai's car and sat with SARAYUTT!
now, how cool can that be? skipped three period of lessons and gave my mind a 1andahalf hours break too...
Hmmm....

well, on Friday, something happened and Mr.head prefect might not be feeling so good, so i wish he has cheered up! after he had talked to gauri and i have talked to him...
well, i kinda find myself lucky i'm not in his shoes and kind of guilty i didn't want to offer much help at the beginning when he asked me if i would do the typing for him at home...
and i rejected, and asked him to do it himself...
HOW GUILTY CAN YOU BE ,CHERYL WONG!

YES, too guilty over too many things!
shit... why did you even end up like that?
make yourself feel bad.

well, waited for dunno how many hours on friday afternoon for CHERYL TANG, HUANG WENYI AND VICTOR KWAN just to go back to primary school... well, at least i got a ride there... spend time i primary school . cool bananas. people sid i'm TALL!!!! [ FEELING VERY ELATED]

AND YES! ENCI accompanied me and he talked to me... cause he was waiting for SANDI LIM BEIZHENG!
HEHEHEHE~ caught! he was very funny, preten pretend read physics but actual fact is he was talking to me all the while...
HAHHAHAA!
we shared about America's NEXT TOP MODEL!
his favourite subject...
HAHAHAHA!
anyway, Mr ong en Ci, i saw the photo! ultra disgusting!
EEEW~

and sorry JOAN, i only managed to tell Darren not gauri
and sorry gauri, i ran away without saying goodbye to you...
and thank you William and Darren, who helped me keep the flags as i was the last girl guide there.

**don't like to talk about silly htings here. stupid grandma! thats silly and plain rude! I"M YOUR GRANDAUGTHER! THATS NOT HOW YOU TREAT A GRANDAUGHTER! MAKE HER LOOK CHEAP!

P.S. When a flour baby dies, bake cake with it...
and I'm very sad... Cheryl is now very lonely.
poor Darren and Joan... why did you two die!?!!
and JOAN soon[as in the human] please continue to feed Cheryl[the blackgoldfish]

asleastyoucouldhavetoldmesomething...
itwasyourfaultfornotevensayingalasthing.
atleastitriedyoudontknowme,
howifeel,everything!shutup and
getlostfrommylifenow.

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

it's a mixed kind of feeling.

you might just want to skip this post if you hate long winded thoughts



I do not really know what's wrong with me.

sometimes I'm happy.

sometimes I'm sad

sometimes i get frustrated.

sometimes I'm calm

and these emotions all change very quickly. I have no idea why. Maybe because Mid-year is approaching? well, i know it's approaching... But i had to take this chance to let go of my bottled-up thoughts. There are so many things that I've kept inside me for so-long... and i mean very long... maybe more than a year ? well it may sound short but everyday many things happen and things changes so it kind of affects my mood as well... It's not easy to bring personal thoughts out of the mouth.(I'm sure you understand) and i cannot make what i want to say on a blog that everyone will see and read but i am trying to put things down not so directly and long winded-ly . After Teacher's day, i thought that things will be calmer but i did not expect that handling new prefects can be so difficult and tiring as-well. The year-end is coming again and i feel very sad, i do not want this year to end so quickly... why does time fly so fast?

I regretted many things and how i wished time would turn back for me to change things... Whtas done cannot be undone. i understand... well, i seriously do not wish to post about school things anymore...

I also suffer from home depression... i suffer stress from school and family and there is not a time i can find peace for myself... the only escape seems to be when i'm left alone...and left to do alot of thinking... I just hope that maybe in this world, there's someone who can understand me well. I CAN'T TAKE THIS STRESS ANYMORE!

By keeping myself occupied and busy, i seem to not thinnk too much and let my mind wander off too much.

ANYWAY, i would like to thank some of my friends who have kept me alive and tolerated with me.
GAURI- who has beeen the 'light' of my life,neever fail to cheer me up and give me a good laugh.
LIONEL- who always listen to all my Unhappiness and lets me speak my mind very easily.
AQILAH- who comforts me when i feel sad
HARMONY- someone who seems to listen and let me bully
JOAN- the sucker who talks to me and crap with me
WILLIAM - his hair makes me laugh
SHA- nvr fail to make me smile in class
MISS NORAINI- my best buddy who treats me really nice!
and
CLARA- the girl whom i can talk to during maths...

WELL, i have to thank many more people as well... for tolerating my unforseen tempers and emotional breakdowns.
P.s. GAURI, one day i'll tell you EVERYTHING!

to update

there is this BIG HUGE PROBLEM.

gauri wants me to update my blog.

so i did

here i am.

but i dunno what to update about, so many things have been happening.

ok, lets talk about GAURI,

the almost becoming bird-like creature, which also happens to be a pig.

yup thats all.

HER BABY DIE!

OH NO!

HAHA, and recently she's becoming weird. ECCENTRIC

SUCKA!

AND, when will embarrasing things ever end for cheryl?!

ONE AFTER ANOTHER AND MORE COMING!

go and die la!

mdm cheah,ne t term and then tchers day.

BLOODY HELL!

HAHA~ OK. just for gauri.

Sad.
UGH!

oh...

oh yeah, haha. yupps i'm updating the blog.
HAHA! CRAP!
STTOP CALLING moi PIG!

the following people are the pigs:
-TEY ZEE YEE
-WANG WEI LIANG
&- GAURI VARSHA RAI!

YUPSS!

i had lots of fun celebrating birthdays.

and lalala~ durian durian so YUMMY!

yes, STUPID GAURI!- the littlest pesky little pest.
LAME LA!
NONSENSE!

L-O-S-E-R
L-A-M-E-R

p.s.to GAURI. she has a fever~
she's hot.
& she cant be stop.[ our little joke]


i am very ANGRY ABOUT MANY THINGS!
i want to kill people!
i want to MURDER PEOPLE!
i want to chop people into million pieces and throw them all over kallang river.
WHATS THEIR GOD DAMN PROBLEM!!!!!
F*** you! D**** u!

GAURI VARSHA RAI's ALIVE~ 

WooHoo~  =D

HMMM!

IT's VERY PEACEFUL HERE~

HEHE.

come squeeze me into mash potato la!

cheryl

LIFE's PEACEFUL MAN!
DRASTIC CHANGES.
GOOD AND BAD!

YEEKS

yups, wadeva the result.
ya, so...
i'm the vice-head.
pressure, stress, EVERYTHING!
gotta change myself she says,
gotta start behaving like a mature lady...
stop being childish, playful and absent-minded.

i promised to make sure i change for the better,
and as i said, i must definitely take on this role proudly yet humbly.
i will accept my challenge.

lots-of-love,
cheryl

You Are More Yang

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Are You More Yin or Yang?

Your Learning Style: Flexible and Adaptable

You are a great hands on learner, and you have an excellent memory. You Should Study: Acting Architecture Creative Writing Design Foreign Languages and Literature Journalism Literature Music Photography

What Should You Study?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Feminine Are You?

Your Extroversion Profile:

Assertiveness: Very High Cheerfulness: High Excitement Seeking: High Activity Level: Medium Friendliness: Low Sociability: Low

How Extroverted Are You?

saturday.

Today we had our conference at TKGS!
so fun
i met en han :D
yeah, and i was actually in the same group as toh wee's sister.
HAHA
and esther seah's brother!
haha.
it wasa very meaningful.
i learned alot.
and i love NORMA SIT!
GO HILLARY!
WEE!
It was the second time i heard mr martin tan and it's ereaally cool, and it's like, norma was so for HILLARY
and MARTIN comes in, OBAMA!
HAHA!
games were fun , fresh and interesting.
so overall, its rather cool, but we feel that our teachers could have been there too.
haha
ended with eating with GAURi at macdonald.
then went home, then taklk to my new friend, TOFU BOY!

Cherylization

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIONEL TEH!

HAHA, today got elections.

made a bet with GAURI the hindi girl,

haha. if she becomes the head or vice head, i get $1 and she has to treat yi heng to KFC!

hooohooohooo, yup definitely i get mine.

and today, we had vesak celebration, it is like so...

WEM...

HAHA.

ya, i was best in ART!

i get my prize!

just a cheapskate cert.

zzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

and that Zhen hong is so funny.

haha.

and me and gauri were CRAPPING LIKE HELL O' A NONSENSE YEAH!

yupps. and i obviously quarreled with that bloody hell of a irritating NIGEL KOH CHIA CHEN!

HE SUCK!

and then the start of a civilization and something something -ing  starts too.

ya... it all started with.....

and there are,

zhen ningning, 

which means: homosexual;transexual; gaying; acting like a woman.

elization

eating shit; or acting like a fool and blur and looking like one too.

Cherylization

too many meanings i cant speak of here.

Leonardization

growing tall and not stopping.

Jeremying

showing weird KOOKOO faces.

then today, we went to marina, not very fruitful a GG trip.

butyes!

went to watch MADE OF HONOUR!

woohoo. so cool.

so romantic.yep.

but when i see kissing scenes...

i go EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

and, when i see those scottish guys in skirt, i go ZHEN NING NING!

and i will start laughing like hell.

HAHAHA

and then i behave like a crazy wman after the show still laughing at funny pick-up lines.

haha.

NOT MY FAULT!

ELIZA Taught me those weird words.

HAHA.

i still miss my best friend.

loves today,

CHERYL~

yes, I'm posting for YOU!!!!!

dun get any stupid wrong ideas, i am talking about GAURI.
that overly crazy WOMAN!
who forces me to update my blogs.
OR ELSE...
she'll do bad things to me...
maybe she'll blurt things out
or,
show me too much 'love and affection'.
which is why i actually bother to update my blog.

HA HA.

YES! i pass all my subjects!
including a-e math and PHYSICS!
woo hoo!
LUV MYSELF

yeps, speech is over, for two days, when i was standing up there, i tell you freaking mama ass.
my stomach ache like siao !
hey, anyway just caught a show, it s called BROADWAY BENG!
its the nicest comedy ever, although crude...
ha ha, my cousin said she supposed i laughed the loudest in the whole theater,
i dun care cuz i enjoyed myself.
;D

and wish me total luck for tomorrow, cus its the elections.
elections!
...
just no whatsoever feelings on it!

yeps. and i'm currently breaking free from stress.

AND I MISS MY BEST FRIEND TangYaYun SO MUCH NOW!
BRING HER BACK TO ME!

love and hatreds,
CHERYL!

.GAURI.[for her]

HAHA!

forced to write this entry.

BY MY GREATEST FRIEND

shall not tease her.

    HEHEHEHEHEEHHE. 

my $1. HAHAHA!

finally.

i seriously dunno wat to write.

ya, exams are here, wadeva man.

gotta PASS. cannot be a failure right?

i feel so. STRESSED?!

confused?

i dunno.

've been studying. except i dun have mood for  studying SS.

i dunno why?

in the end paper turn out to be DAMN hell a SHITTY.

i dun care already.

haixs. so many things to say, talk about what?

i dunno.

HAHAs

anyway, its like...

i have to do some shitty publicity posters.

the posters are going to look shitty, cos of me.

and i dun want to be.

'^'  

like hell no.

me and lionel's wish is to be normal prefects.

so... haixz

BUT. WHO CARES.

i have decided to now. just be CRAZY!

like always.

well, I AM.

knom jea sop-bai.

BYE!

here GAURI!

and ya.

my $1.

tday is a day

HELLO! 

tday wasnt too bad...

i had an interview with Mrs Tay, 

for the head prefect thingy....

not too bad,

i wld say...

i ate lunch with Gauri[as usual]

                             Lionel

                             Wei Xing

                             Dionna.

HAHAHA!

then i went to laminate over 80 pieces of a3 size paper for the cambodia packing thingy.

WALAO!

i cant believe that i have to actually go to cambodia with people like,

WANG WEI LIANG & TEY ZEE YEE!

i cant stand their DISGUSTING nonsense, 

although WWL is funny.

I fought with him and aunty betty scolded us.

and then she go tell mrs poh.

OH SHIT!

then,i cant believe it.we smiled at each other.

then some lingering till gauri came.

quarrelled with TZY and WWL till bus stop

DAMN FUNNY!

GAURI AND THEM!

HAHAHAHAHAAH!

CRazy fRiEnDS!

HAHA~

GdBye!

TIll i'm BacK again!

today, my god-mum is giving birth to her son.

i pray to god for her well-being.

nth much today.

tml going to school again!

HAIX

HELLO! i'm back. just lazy.
anyway, many things happened.
and i dunno when i'll break down.

ever since camp, i've rather determined.
I LOVE CAMP!
and i aspire to be an INSTRUCTOR someday.
I'm REALLY TIRED.
stressed out wadeva.
i'm really tired of life in school. i've been pushing myself so hard sometimes i just feel like really breaking down and tell my loved ones how tired i am already.
i try to conceal my feelings and true emotions, but they just show sometimes.this time round i didn't break downi tried so hard to stop myself from letting it out.
i really want to THANK GAURI! for being there for me all the time...
i love her!
she's my 'greatest friend'
HAHAHA!

i'm NOMINATED HEAD PREFECT!
GOSH! i'm not sure if i'm up to it, looking at that stress tagging it.
i'm worried.
but after thinking about what Doctor William said, i feel that i should just muster up courage and GO for it!
show them the GIRL POWER!i've got ATTITUDE MAN. i'm so STRESSED!
EVRYTHING'S SO MUCH!
but i've been going high with GUIDES hehe!
i love guides!
something to destress to.

just like my road run.
GOT TOP 10 ALSO!
gosh!!! first time in my life.
so HAPPY! thanks to GAURI!
haha. sec1-50
sec2-60-80+++
SEC THREE- 7!!!!!
WHEEX!

after a lot i realised that i have been winning myself and i am very pleased.
i faced many challenges i never knew i could.
and i am changing.
but i will not change my BUBBLY character, like many ppl always say.
GOOD BYE!
and till i come back again!



~courage is needed even if we fail.

LOL-DAY! =D

LOL.
Tday, is FUN!
hahaha.
first i had...
PRESENTATION on cambodia.
WHEEX!
i'm telling you... there's so many adorable photos of me.
HAHAHA!
MS SALINA is intelligent.
=.=
SANG. but like so not prepared.
nvm. i enjoyed it.

then during MT my walking dictionary keep playing with me.
dun wanna give me info tday.
dun wanna lend me correction tape also.
WALAO!
mrs LAI JIONG JING![so many mrs lai arnd]
so fun playing with her tday.
dunno how to tease me.

my PARTNER, sha.
hahaha
so FUN!
i go scold her becos i dunno how to make a diamond.
then i like so WTHlike nonsense like tat.
then we went to eat, then walk walk after school.
then we guides here band there.
LOL.
its so LMAO.
then we go disturb aqilah.
LURB LURB LURB RIGHT LURB.[we noe wad it means.]

LOL

then got so HIGH during guides.
then go POP meeting, get even more high!
must be the terrible effects of kerosense.
HAHA.stupid KENN that shorty.
keep fighting with me. like ELIZA SAY LA!
LOL, then i keep making everyone like lose concentration.
hahah! my didi dexmond la.

nvm.

during guides we sing again!
hahaha.
so fun singing.
i love singing.
singing is my life.
fine, so LOL tday.
then everyone tease me mrs...
stupid ELIZA!
i will take my revenge, mrs LAi aka mrs thio.


i love aqilah.
aqilah love......
i love SAH my partner!
i love evreryone who went on stage to sing today.!
I'm HAPPY today!
ITS A LOL DAY!
so LOL! =D

I buried will.

so i buried will.
so now,
if there's no will,
there's no way.

i am so angry.
i give up.
this is so infuriating!

maybe its me.
but i am too fed-up to think about who's fault it is.
i perceived it is yours.
or maybe IT is your fault.

never-mind.
for this,
i will forgive and forget.
and live happily-ever!
=D

problems problems...

haix
cant upload more photos...
blogger got prob!
GRR!
nvm nvm...
HIGH these days!

BABY PHOTOS!

RAndom Pics!

random photos... haha.
-GAURI... [so sexy]
-my art work.
-some random stuff.

CHERYL!

HAHAH!
found juicy secrets, kind-along ago la actually but ... it doesn't concern me...
SAD in school.
WON DEBATE!
damn delighted.
BEST SPEAKER!
not so happy though.
WAS... in fact.
but, something just dashed my mood.
i feel so indirectly 'put-down'
if u know what i mean.
but people say, if its mine, its mine...
if i am happy i should be, don't let others affect my mood. right?
YA...
BUT, i'm seriously glad it's all going to be over soon.
& i AM SERIOUSLY WAY TOO HAPPY , we won the first preliminary round.
IT kind-OF BOOST our MORALE, for the next DEBATE...
SO HAPPY!
yeah^^
OUR VALENTINE with the school PAID-OFF!
right? GAURI!
hahaha!
mdm ROzita, still had the cheek to call us 'losers'
in fact, we are WINNERS!
i'm very irritated by this paticular person which i'm not going state who, but she makes me feel so EEW now, the fact that she has really been a great friend la.
haix... nvm.

SATURDAY!16FEB!
went to caroline's party!
was FORCED by y dad to wear a little more formal...
so... i wore a dress.[OMG!]
then i met up with Jun Lin,Darren and Jeremy.
UNLUCKILY, we saw Toh Wee. IDIOT!
keep suan me in the Dress!
THEN nvm, walked and walked arnd MRT station to find way out , but it's so confusing, here,there,everywhere...
with 3 pathetic people!
CHANG WEI XING! u Pang Seh me ang left me with 3 pathetic people!.
how could you!
I suggested we walk to Caroline' house... BUT!
that DARREN LAI JIONG JING! wanted to take TAXI! [rich kids are like dat la, no choice]
but in the end, i got it my way!
we walked there.
reached there and played with WeiXing! SKIPPING ROPE...
WEi XING so dangerous...
hai yo yo...
then went in to th room to play with patrick's wii,,,
SO FUN! junlin Kena trashed by me...
DArren trashed me...
jeremy trashed junlin...
hahaha...
anyways it wasn't too bad.
can consider getting one, quite good for exercising.
and then Joan came!
she lah.. cannot contact us...
nvm. she still came.
then ran around disturbing ervina, cause she wore SEXY BLACK STOCKINGS.
hahaha, u dont wanna noe wad happen.
song bo!
then got buffet dinner.
YAY!
me and weixing went around and taste and enjoy ALL THE FOOD!
cheers to me and wei xing!
YAY!
then eat finish play zhong ji mi ma,
caroline's other friends came and play with us too, but they weren't sure how to.
sad la.
then every time tio the code, set by the person next to me.[caroline's friend] no need to go one round then is me already.
sad la.
especially the ''49'' incident.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
then all the stupid forfeits.
wad mus give rose, give water, take photo...
WTH!, then must dring combi drink...[SOYA SAUCE,water,green tea, cheesecake]
hahaha, lucky i professionally trained...
then after that went home, i thought joan left, sobbs BUT She didn't (=
hahaha...
she wanted to send me home by stopping her taxi near my home, re-route...
sad rite?
but in the end... weixing, darren, junlin left...
then i was supposed to take taxi with joan, si jun and marcus .
but after that, WE[leonard jia lin, kenn, si jun,marcus , joan and me] took bus 7 home!
YEAH!
but Jian Lin was so angry, with kenn for stoppin her from taking taxi... and dragging her into bus...
hahaha...
joan, si jun and Marcus then alighted with me at bugis because, joan's dad fetch them from there.
so i went HOME!
hahaha!
thats about it...

take care ppl!

stepped on my tail

currently, i feel happy, normal.
don't want to waste strength getting fed up anymore.
just not going to care.

still not over some incidents that happened lately.

incident1:
i don't understand y she has to so sarcastically put me down when you are no better.
i seriously feel so upset over it, only Gauri understands.

incident2:
i betcha she will regret and herself up in tears,
dun wanna talk about her attitude, but, it seriously puts me off.
I just feel that i am such a failure.
and only Gauri understands.

incident3:
my chinese compo in the school's chinese compo book! hahahahah! PRO right?
ya, but then my class was so printed WRONGLY.
instead of 2c they put me 2d! i am so pissed off.
its like i HATE 2d and its like outting me down too la.
whats with putting me down and making me feel so lousy all the time? knock it off ppl! Noone understands.

& thats all for recent unhappy moments.

went to joan house and play on the 10th of feb.
with wenyi.
got treated to dinner, it was damn shiok lar!
hahahaha, thanks joan's dad and joan.
then this two siao gila crazy girl, joan & wenyi decided to go for a walk.
so ya, we went for a walk, but then i had a stomachache, must be too full after dinner i guess.
then they decided to go to Sijun's house. [OMG!]
then i reluctantly followed with a tummyache.
and they walked and walked but cant find it.
then we wanted to go back and we saw this really cool van with ALOT of CUTE AND ADORABLE STITCH PLUSHIES!
Oh so CUTE.
then, lynn called, so we decided we shldn't go to his hse and we went back as lynn came.
hahaha! my Saviour!
then played, gossiped, gamble and bused home.

thats about it.
CNY is like the same every single year so... nvm.