Monday, July 13, 2009

HATE

HATE YOU HATE YOU HATE YOU.
dun ever talk to me.
LIKE I NEVER GET CRITICIZED ENOUGH.
YOU'RE NOT WORTH MY KINDNESS.
I KNOW I SUCK.
I AM JUST BUT A FAT UGLY FOOL THAT SHOULD JUST DISAPPEAR IN THIS WORLD.
I tried my best to be nice. Although I can be mean. BUT TO YOU, I tried hard to be a nice friend.
I KNOW I AM FAT AND UGLY. DUN NEED TO GO COMPARE. Not like I've never been called Ugly or FAT in my life. I always turn it into a joke... And all the sarcasm used only makes it worse.
Just STOP IT okay?
I BEG.
sometimes... People like me cant take it too.
I have ZERO ego. ZERO self confidence. HAPPY NOW?
ALL ALONG IT'S just a FAKE HAPPY SMILE like i said.
FRIENDS? NAH.I'll forgo them if I have to.
I'll just be a lonely old woman like my dad says I'll be if i continue being so stubborn. Maybe I might be after all. D:

sigh... I hate myself.
I need to find my space to cry.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

tomorrow's a new week

Tomorrow's a new week.
Every week is eventful.
Today, I went to Ubin with my friends from Shanghai. AND.... I MIGHT be spending winter in shanghai right after O levels. I'll be travelling there alone. HOW FRIIKIN COOL IS THAT? :D

Sigh~ tomorrow is 13 july. 
IF only things were like they USED TO BE. I feel like crying now. BYE.