tomorrow.

Olevel English Oral tomorrow.

'GULP' terrifying.

HEY THERE! I MISS YOU![dumbass Haziqah actually in Batam now]

oh yeah.... my foot.

YES, something made me really unhappy today.
It's about some people's attitude...
No matter you mean it or not, I would like to claim some credit for some friends and classmates not only me.I am not that upset anymore, but I would like to say my piece.
Today, Madam Cheah distributed our sweets and goodies from the prize we won on Friday from the Frisbee game.We all had a different assortment of goodies... And some people just have a bad attitude about it. Just because they didn't get the goodies they want or so... They make a fuss about playing to win those and those who did not play should ought to give up their goodies. I find it kind of annoying... As a class, nobody recognised the efforts of the cheerleaders like Sandi who was screaming her lungs out for everyone. Nor did they acknowledge the fact that our banners were made by Cristal herself through the night, so that our class would be more special and that the players would feel more encouraged. If we could, we could have not bothered to cheer nor make any effort to support the team as non-players. But we did so much and we put in our hearts and souls to cheer loudly.
ALL WE FREAKING GOT WAS: YOU ALL ALSO NEVER PLAY!

F***! [I'm trying not to be vulgar]

I know I did not play. Perhaps I did not deserve that Oreo right? Just because i got a 38/40 for oral? FINE THEN. Nothing much compared to the efforts put in to win the matches right?

I threw it away anyway.

there's no need to.

I was cooped up all day at home.
Eunice came to collect her homework, I really want to go to Marina barrage to take photos.

Because of my laziness,I did not go out to meet THEM. I was singing to the national day songs and laughing at Singapore Idol while eating my Chicken Rice. I actually forgot what i wanted to post about...
[pause for a long while to think]
Still cannot remember. D:
OH. I want to get a Bike and I would like to also go to the botanical gardens to take photos.:D
And I'm obsessed with TopGears videos. I love cars.

AH! I finally remembered the REAL reason why I want to post.
It seems like I will be going to Shanghai for winter then... perhaps for the whole December. I told my aunt I want to celebrate my birthday here.The best part is - I'm going to Shanghai ALONE. YEP. ALONE.I think it will be cool and interesting.Can't wait for Christmas, I got a ' SING SOME CAROLS' mood. Sorry for being random.

adios people.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle.

Truthfully,it is I'M VERY CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE.

UGH.Why are human beings so complicated? who created the art of being hypocritical? Being caught in the middle is no good.I wondered if life would be better if i were a boy [ song runs into head ]. Boys are less complicated aren't they? [ at least when it comes to friendship ] I feel so guilty. I really do not mean anything, but when something happens, it is hard to change reality and it is impossible to pretend nothing happened.Stop blaming or being unhappy over nothing, just reflect on what you did. Just think about what led to all this, do you seriously think we all want this?[do not question about this]

BTW, I got full marks for prelims oral reading, I hope Mrs. Bala wouldn't change the marks... [ my fantastic guide teacher, oral examiner and fantastic Indian Dancer. LOVE HER]

sigh... The world is so complicating. Ignorance is definitely bliss. Living in my own world is even better I supposed. So much has happended, and it just goes on and on...I would blog all day long if I had to write everything out. It's difficult to give everything now, I have to keep part of me to myself, I cannot give it all away.[ I am not sad, really]I need to prevent myself from being upset.I am still my chirpy self, still the GOOGOOGAGA over hot stuff[ as in boys(as in very very hot) ] girl.* note: I used the word GIRL. teehee. Being optimistic is the way to a happier self and life. I SHALL NOT LIVE LIFE WITH REGRETS.

Somehow I feel burdened when people trust me and tell me things. I really apologise to my BRA THER. sorry... Ok. Anyway, CLARA YONG : thanks for being so AMAZING. You are truly beautiful inside out. I swear that I am an ass. HAHAHA. I just felt so upset just now, cause i was crying for gujunpyo[jujunbiao]. AWWWWWW... Life is really unfair right? Does it mean cos we're short, we're destined to find shorter guys? D; speaking of which, JESSE MCCARTNEY's GOING BLONDE SOON. LOVE HIM BLONDE. which reminds me... I miss them.I hate myself.HAZIQAH, THERE's THIS REALLY AMAZINGLY ADORABLE GIRL CALLED CHERYL WONG MISSING YOU LIKE HELL IN A SAD PLACE CALLED MANJUSRI.

I feel like a bad person.

i don't care how people judge me, from now on, I am going to be ignorant.
I JUDGE PEOPLE A LOT. HAHAHA.

A crazy girl with lots to tell, but doesn't know how...

I don't know how to tell what kind of emotion this is, but i know it's making me feel weird.

it's been so long, since i posted so long, before i end...
THANK YOU HUI ZHEN, GLENN, SEAN, YING YING, DA GE , PEIYI, SAY NGOH and HO ZHENG HUI[ basically, DA FAMILY] for making life much more wonderful and special for me.


AND... AQILAH, don't fret.
and... Marcus, you can always talk to me.
and... Elias, HA HA HA.

signing off. <3

ahhhh~

FINALLY TOLD SOMEONE ABOUT IT.
SIGH.
MISSING....


THANKS CLARA!

sigh

I'd rather give it all up.
Take it. you can have it all.
I don't want anything.

Just 2 days. 3 people. I guess I do miss everything.

The past is sweet, not bitter. the future looks bitter now.

Should change then.

GLENN, HUI ZHEN! Thanks for those times.

AIYAH. I MISS OBSabah so much thanks to Haziqah.
Aaron, Benedict, Syaz and ALL.
[i dun care if they are my scandals]

TUITION CHANGED TO SATURDAY 2-4PM. SO HAPPY.
I CAN SEE.....

okok. shall stop here. heehee