Michael Jackson.

His death made me realise how brittle life is.

Nobody knew that he was going to die. do they?
When I woke up to another day... the first news... Michael Jackson just died...
I WAS LIKE: WHAT?!
& I felt upset... Immediately.

Nobody knows when they are going to die.

Treasure your life. It's not worth to lose it for anybody... other than self.


Words are sometimes pretty useless. (A difficult thing for me to admit, because I love words, and in general I regard them as quite powerful.) In situations of deep pain, very few of us have anything brilliant to say — our words are not adequate to the situation.

you're like :D

Cheryl is smiling.


Happiness is something that is hard to be faked.
It'll hurt your cheeks to wear a fake smile.
it hurts doesn't it? when you're asked to smile for pictures?
but it does not really hurt when you just smile because you really feel happy... somehow, you just don't feel the cheeks aching.
IT'S WEIRD. But, this shows how happiness cannot be faked.
A smile is a priceless thing. Use it in the right way. It's the best gift one can give.
So, SMILE and the world SMILES with you.
Pass a smile on and on.
Make someone's day. Just SMILE.
you'll feel the power of a smile, especially when you smile at someone and they smile right back at you!
If you feel sad or down... just sit upright, SMILE to yourself, breathe in, close your eyes, breathe out, open your eyes and tell yourself that everything will be alright in the end. EVERYTHING WILL END. [think of all the happiest things]
Do not be stubborn. JUST SMILE.

PEACE OUT :D

You're like Yoon Ji Hoo to me.
&shedidnotendupwithhimintheend.butiknowthiscrushain'tgoingaway.theonlythingthatkeepsmewishingonawishingstar.wonderifheknowshe'sallithinkaboutatnight.itsuckstoseeyouhurt.
idontknowhyitjusthurts.

Learned to never get too close.

AH, Morning Glory rocks.
Had a FUN time with them, painting for Guide's carnival.

my injury left an ugly scar... D:
BUT, IT'S OKAY. It's nothing...[ i would be lying]

Twitter-ed, so i can follow Jesse McCartney :D

met KIM. met CAROLINE[she's leaving D;].met Haziqah-and i still want to meet her.

I so do not MISS school.

Hating You.

cycled to many new places, walked like crazy too :D

i have no wishes to continue my post.

LOL!

so cute! WONDERBABY!
SHE CAN DANCE!
SO ADORABLE!

remedy

The best cure to all sadness... HAZIQAH. I'm feeling much better now.I had a BLAST!

something changed.

Hey Hey. It's been a long time since i posted yeah? Well, why would I? I never understand how i feel anymore. Chinese O's Over. that was random. Ah. SHIT. I'm confused.Chinese O's over... ain't that great?Did i just repeat myself? SHIT, that was stupid. I feel stupid... so it's okay. Has it been eventful? Meaningful? Joyful? Maybe, maybe not.Seriously, what am i doing here? Ever since my blog got spammed by some immature creatures, i hate my blog. But whatever the case is,[speaking' like a good ol' lawyer :D] It's over. Case closed!Been feeling moodier and moodier, I don't feel like going to school, don't feel like talking and i feel so trapped, or lost. I seem to get lost in everything i do. My mind's blowing. Thanks Sha! Thank You for letting me get it off my chest. Does this post sound random? Because i feel like i'm getting lost here too.Something is wrong, with me. & I'm pining for you, really. I think i missed you alot. Now, i don't even know who i am anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't understand why am i like this. I hate myself... I hate the people around me, every little thing irks. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. I feel like throwing myself into a river... drown in my tears perhaps. Why can't we turn back time? Why am i born like this? Why am i born uglier? Why must people comment about looks? Why must people always think they are everything? WHy must people be so annoying? Why do people put on a mask? Why can't they be themselves? Why am i a girl? Why must some people tell lies? Why do some people behave badly? Why are some people so mean? Why are some people so nice, and some not? Why must people call me ugly? Why aren't some people sensitive to other's emotions? Why is that man sitting on the bench himself? Why do i hate her? Why is he making me feel weird? Why do i pine for this? Why am i missing that night? Why do i feel a heartache? Why do i feel like crying? Why must i look like dora? Wh can't she be more original? Why must she act cute? Why must some people make themselves miserable? Why does she make me feel like i am no longer special? Why am i so sad? Why is the song making me feel like crying? Why don't fairies exist? Why can't i be special? Why? Why? Why? I hate myself. Just leave me to wallow in self pity. Nothing is going my way, and i don't know where to go? I never had a good rest. not until today. not for a very long time... I feel like breaking down. Why must shit happen? PLEASE. PLEASE STOP IT. I KNOW I AM JUST BUT A USELESS GIRL. WHAT CAN A GIRL DO? FUCK WOMAN. THEY EXISTS FOR NOTHING RIGHT? IS THIS WHAT THEY MEAN? A GIRL HAS NO DIGNITY OR STAND JUST BECAUSE THIS IS A CHINESE FAMILY? IS THIS WHY THEY HATE ME? WHY DO THEY CALL ME UGLY? I KNOW I AM UGLY. I KNOW THIS SINCE I WAS VERY YOUNG. BUT CONSTANT REMINDER ONLY BREAKS THE HEART. AND I FEEL LIKE I EXIST FOR NOTHING. PLEASE PEOPLE BITCH. BE HUMBLE, DON'T PISS THE FUCKING HELL OUTTA ME. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. SHOOOOOOOOOO! I'VE HAD ENOUGH. PLEASE. I KNOW I'M JUST SOME ORDINARY UGLY DUCKLING THAT WILL DIE AS AN UGLY DUCKLING, STOP SHOEING ME ALL THAT CRAP. STOP COMMENTING. YOU'RE NOT FIT TO. I HATE COMPLIMENTS. I ALWAYS RECEIVE SACARSM, SACARSM MAKES UP MY LIFE OF COMMENTS.SOMETIMES, I JUST DONT MEAN IT. BUT, I'M LOSING MYSELF. MY COURAGE. MAYBE I'M NO LONGER CHERYL? MAYBE I CAN BE PUSHED AROUND EASILY. MAYBE IT'S NOT NECCESSARY TO RESPECT PEOPLE LIKE ME? MAYBE IT'S NOT IMPORTANT TO APOLOGIZE TO ME SINCE I'M CHERYL? MAYBE I AM JUST A TOY? MAYBE I SHOULD NOT EXIST?

I REALLY HATE MYSELF NOW. ALL ALONG ACTUALLy.

ALAMAK. I really cant stay happy for long. HAZIQAH, i miss you!