Just to say ...

Well, i know i can no longer hold this feeling inside me.
I cannot battle these emotions everyday.

I guess it was all just a misunderstanding, then i began reading blogs.. then, i get hurt, so bad. But i never wanted to believe you wouldn't trust me, cause i trusted you as my dearest friend, suddenly everything was beginning to turn cold and harsh, for us both. I didn't understand why initially, that's when i begin reading blog, i feel so upset. I didn't dare talk to any of you... especially you, i was afraid, i admit, i was a coward, i could never handle relationships well. But, i never wanted to end this one. Thinking about all the times we spent, laughing at each other's joke, the never ending laughter from us both.. it was indeed unforgettable. I'm sorry i still can't face you, as i said i was really afraid, afraid of all these awkward situations that can really hurt. every time i encounter something, you're always on my mind, ALWAYS. It's like the automatic urge to want to sms you and share all these with you, and only you. Because it's a habit, being with you has became part of my life, and i swear, without you, life has changed. i know i am greedy, but i yearn to be with you again. spending all those time with you. I miss you. goodbye.

-i hope you read this.
believe me, i believe you.