I've moved! my new abode : laughlikeneverbefore.tumblr.com :)

Pleasant sixteenth birthday :)

Thank You My DEAREST FRIENDS :) I had a very splendid birthday!

Can i post again later? this lazy bug is like stopping me from updating. UGH.

All the right moves.

So Yeah, How about a longer post?
The Hiatus was definitely not due to spending time on things that ought to be done during the O level period.I have no idea what was going on as well. denial denial... sigh. I have no idea how I would like to start my post or what I would like to share about.

Alright then.

The O levels was definitely not as easy as everyone put it. [it's quite challenging.]
I have 3 more papers left.

Ok. that's it about the O.
I crave for crab, I crave for home cooked meals, I crave for a meal where there will be people sitting around me to enjoy the meal together.It is indeed kinda sad and pathetic to be eating alone all the time isn't it? Oh, not to forget the part where you're INDULGING yourself in the amazing instant noodle that satisfies any empty stomach.YES, Dinner= Instant. D:

Life is just unfair. There are some who are born with a silver spoon in their mouths and are constantly exposed to fine dining. Have family memebers to bring them out for fine dining.Not to mention the companions they have for dinner.When was the last time I actually sat down for a meal with my own family. It seems that that was eons ago. But, OH WELL. What's the point of dissing my own sad life? Forget it.

Let's move on to something appealing to our hearts and soul other than these bullcrappy stuff. PFFT.

How about, MICHAEL BUBLE?
This is such a happy song. SIGH~



Tell me you love it.
Cause I love it.
& yes, I JUST HAVEN'T MET YOU YET.

EPIC CONVERSATION.

Look at the two retards.

Here's PART of the most epic conversation ever.

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
he's already infatuated with the girl named dorcas

[BENEDICT] says:
HAHAH!
that super smart girl he will never get?

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
YES!
MUST BE!
His hormones are raging.

[BENEDICT] says:
hahah how does he know her anyway

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
ask him...
i have no idea...

[BENEDICT] says:
AARON!!!
AARRROOOONN!!!!
HELLO AARROOONNN!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
BLACKKKKY!

[BENEDICT] says:
YOU THERE!
KNOCK KNOCK@

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHA!

[BENEDICT] says:
i called
he isn't there

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHA!

آرون says:
use the door bell idiot

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHAHA!

[BENEDICT] says:
DING DONG!

آرون says:
sorry.

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
epic!

[BENEDICT] says:
DDIIIIINNNGGG DDOOONNGGG!

آرون says:
thats my neighbours door bell

[BENEDICT] says:
i said DING DONG!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
I'm going to save this message.

[BENEDICT] says:
oh fine
BRING!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHA!

[BENEDICT] says:
BBRRRIIIINNNGGG!!!!
ANYONE THERE?
HHHEEEELLLLLLOOOOOOOOO!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
NAH.

[BENEDICT] says:
wait, cheryl

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
let's tear the door down

[BENEDICT] says:
check your shadow
Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
my shadow?

[BENEDICT] says:
he might be hiding in there

آرون says:
i'll use glue to stick it back

[BENEDICT] says:
blend in

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHAHA!


Today, I hanged out with the 2C people! :D

hell part of heaven.

studying sooooooo hard :)

















My vengeful attitude and views has caused me to not be able to forgive and forget.
My Vicious plans of exterminating all I hate and thinking about such things also makes me happy.
These has also caused Gauri to ask me to read the Bible. She said I will learn a thing or two from it.[apparently, gauri reads the bible]

Well, reading JunLin's blog is as good as reading the bible :)

I'm just trying to justify what's right and what's wrong. The wrong should apologise and by apologising, the other party will be able to forgive as well as forget. Isn't it? How can one make a mistake and not be punished? Apart from the fact that it was a mistake after another. I've been trying to justify for myself and all my life, nothing gets justified. EVER.

Well, I found out another cool fact today. My Dad actually learned to play the guitar after going to the catholic church with his friends. MY DAD GOES TO A CHURCH? That was what I asked myself. But, that was eons ago. Haha, I'm going to learn to play the guitar too... My dad promised to teach me. But, my fingers are just not cooperative enough :/

Back to studying I go. TATA for now.

songs that spark memories

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
It seems the natural thing to do
Tonight no one's gonna find us
We'll leave the world behind us
When I make love to you
Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And hope that deep inside you feel it too
Tonight our spirits will be climbing
To the sky lit up with diamonds
When I make love to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do
Is to get close to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And soon this old world will seem brand new
Tonight we will both discover
How friends turn into lovers
When I make love to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do
Is to get close to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you.

oh well, it's random. But, we all sing to old songs during physics, I don't know why.

graduation marks like a fullstop.

byebye school.


Indeed, not a single tear was shed during graduation. Instead of being a rather
solemn affair, it was in fact more joyful than sad. There were crazy laughter , crazy pranks, hugs,no kisses and lots of fun.

graduation is like a full stop to our sentences, it marks the end.
Don't be disheartened or reluctant to leave. We'll all meet again, it's fate and destiny to even be brought together as friends, classmates, schoolmates or even enemies. We'll not let our fate end like that. I'll miss my dearest friends very much.

I would like to thank all the teachers and friends who had spent their precious hours making and preparing gifts for me. Especially Aqilah, I almost cried reading your letter. Thank you very very very much.

I was quite disappointed that I did not get to spend time with my classmates after the event as I had to rush off during reception for my math tuition. D;
Oh well, it's ok, no point crying over spilled milk.

O levels are coming in less than a week. Work hard!

running around without you

Yes,I have indeed been running around.
Everyday, East to West ; Ubi to Bukit Timah. I'm tired D;
Today, I had 5 hours of math! How cool right? I'm having A math tomorrow. Looking forward to another day of five hours of math.

I am really disheartened to see how some people carry such evil and mean thoughts. Why can't they be nice? She is such a religious person and yet, she speaks with a mouth full of dirt. Profanities, mean words that could hurt so many others. I have been hurled such profanities since young and it only shows how uncivilised she is, no matter how she might be very religious and holds such strong beliefs for her religion which I would say, is messed up. Like, seriously. Not only that, her thoughts and the way she speak of others is just nasty. Why can't they just be nice? Is it difficult to share? Is it difficult to not make false accusations of others? Darren is only 7 and Jo is a nice lady. When have they offended her? Our maid has been working for almost 10 years and she still harbour suspicions of her. WHY? WHY? WHY?

That's the limit.

I am really really apologetic for all these temperamental nonsense coming from me.
Perhaps, we are graduating and I want to lessen the bond between all of us so that it will all be easier when that day comes.
That's a selfish thought.
I really do not enjoy all the games that you people play. It is NOT MY GAME.Therefore, I refuse to join in any activities that will be planned in the near future or whatsoever, but, please do enjoy yourselves.
I'll be in China from 6-27 Dec. but, I should be able to come online as I will bring my camera and my laptop there. :D

Back to Chemistreeeeeeeeeeeee.

bad days.

you people never understand how it feels to have a negative self confidence level.

so shut up ok.

I am accepting my new hair. IT'LL GROW... well, I'm trying [trying real hard] to stay positive.

It'll take some time before I will be able to regain my old self back.

Byebye.



To my beloved LR.
Here's a Thank You note for you!
after all these years as friend. I am going to proudly call you my BPF EVER! I really want to thank you very much for all that you have taught me and guided me along in.In almost many aspects of my small and insignificant life, you have made a mark for yourself there. Whenever I seem to be unable to do my work [especially the english ones and the prefectorial duties we shared eg. speeches and scripts and more speeches and scripts.] you will be there to help me in all those that I cannot do well. You have also been a great person I could confide in, whenever I am feeling low, you'll never fail to cheer me up in an instance [that's how effective you are man!] and then, I could tell you almost everything under the sun, stars and moon! This little thank you note can go on forever but I'll keep it short :)
Take care and Thank you a million!
Good luck for your O levels and I wish you well in everything you do.

P.S. and the Porsche part too. :)

P.S.S. BPF= Best Pig Friend

Loves,
Pig wong

all alone?

Hello.
Well, maybe to only Gauri, since she seems to be my only loyal reader as usual.
Like Glenn said '' Sometimes, life just sucks eh?''
It's SO TRUE.So,do not worry. It sucks, SOMETIMES.[how positive]
Well, it's almost 30 days to O level.[ BREATHING DIFFICULTY, AFTER A LONG RECOVERY TIME...]YEAP, 30 DAYS TO MY NIGHTMARE! Just can't believe it. I studied with my cousin at his house over the weekend at Choa Chu Kang and I would say, that type of studying environment makes you want to study even more.it's just super duper tense.

Anyways,I was just thinking again. My dad said I have the lousiest attitude at home.He says my 'HATE EVERYTHING' attitude will result in me suffering in life, in the future and I'll not be any successful if I carry 'this' attitude with me.He says I behave exactly like this WOMAN whom I hate, KIM LIAN.She's OLD and she is MEAN on top of that, she has a very traditional chinese mindset of how boys are treasures.I mean, seriously, what can boys do? I can do what most boys can do. Boys are only a bunch of egoistic animal that are extremely annoying.[right? unless you can change my mind] As I was saying, my dad said my terrible attitude of rebutting to everything they say is the worst and trying to stand up for myself is wrong as well.When I said I hate this or that and how they are practicing favouritism at home, they will scold me for being insesitive and tell me that I am behaving like Kim Lian. He say I will be ALL BY MYSELF in the future, I will grow old and cranky and nobody will like me at alI.That is also because I am not going to get married, I will grow old alone and become something like KIM LIAN. I am scared, even I do not like her. What if I really become something I hate? I believe I do not need anyone like I always tell the boys,' Do I look like I need help?' yeah man... I am going to prove my daddy WRONG.

wish me luck.

Weared out by life.

Life has never offered me a near perfect moment. All I want is some peaceful moments where the demanding society stops, slows and just take a break. That will most probably not happen till my O levels end. I just cried in the car while going to school this morning because i felt so upset and dissapointed that they were so inconsiderate of my feelings. The sarcasm, the harsh words, that look in their eyes and the love you cannot see from their faces. I am a human not a machine. I really cannot go on this way, I will crash and fall.


All i need to find is Yoon Ji Hoo or Gu Jun Pyo. I share the same birthday as the actress who played Geum Jan Di. :D

ABC

FOR MY BELOVED GAURO.

ENJOYIT!

The Beatles.

I'm SOOOO going to get that Beatles compiled special edition CD.
It just brings back fantastic memories of my childhood. All the singing in the car together. Not to forget how it is actually GOOD music. And The Beatles is definitley a legend.

Here's a song from them.:D
I want to hold your hand.



P.s I bought Colbie Caillat's Album .

The baby in the bus:

Today, when I took a bus from bukit timah to toa pah yoh, I saw a little boy in a pram staring in my direction right after he boarded. He was ALL SMILES. He looked so adorable! He just sat there in his pram staring all over the bus curiously, then the baby and I made eye contact. We were staring into each others eye and his was filled with lots of innocence, eyes that still have lots to see and learn. He continued smiling at me and when I finally smiled back widely at him, he gave out a loud chuckle which caused most of the bus commuters to turn and look at what the baby boy was looking at. Although it was kind of silly ... I was actully quite happy because he made my day. I will never forget this baby! I WANT A BABY! except I have to adopt one then. :D

this bond between us, cant be broken.

I'm SOOOO Tired, rushing art is definitely not fun. I regret. PROCRASTINATION. D:
Anyway, Here's another one of those song I LOVE.



Yep, Phil Collins fantastic voice and oh sooooo hot Tarzan.


Not going to let some things bother me. I treasured you as a friend. I kept quiet at moments where I could have been irritated. But, don't you think you are going too far? You need to search yourself and self reflect a lot about this. SOMETIMES... YOU JUST DON'T GET IT. EVEN FOR ME. I myself commit mistakes that I might not be aware of. So, I'm not going to blame anyone for this.

Yellow Submarine~

Yes, This is Yellow Submarine by The Beatles! My favourite song to sing along when I was young



HEY, Jesse's new Music video.* cheeky smiles*
BODY LANGUAGE FEATURING T-PAIN!

100th POST!

HELLO. This is my 100th post!
I've been wanting to save this post for something more special, BUT I CAN'T WAIT.

Happy Birthday to my dad who claims and offered to give me a blackberry when i clearly didn't ask for one.

The holiday is clearly not a holiday at all right?

I need a long long break to calm my nerves. Everything is wrong about me, I eat slower, I eat last at every meal, HOW CAN THIS BE POSSIBLE. My ferocious APPETITE is GONE and that is SCARY. I didn't go out with any of my schoolmates this holiday, neither did I study with them. I went to school everyday, YOU GOT ME, EVERYDAY to do my Art Coursework. [ I just need to complete it ]

I only went out ONE DAY. That was Wednesday. I went from almost extreme East to almost extreme West to meet my friends for lunch then to go for my tuition. It was worth it, after all, it has been almost 10 long months since I met them. It was nice to meet them and still have so much nonsense to talk about. Although we didn't realy have anything to do, it was nice meeting them. - Awesome people wear awesome clothes- It is weird to like meet them alone initially, after all the scandal nonsense and it has been 10 long months after all. AND THEY ARE REALLY REALLY NONSENSICAL! Well, tuition was really fun too. I was called INNOCENT. :D totally am. * winks *
During tuition, my mama called me to ask me to go to Outram to visit my ahgong who was in hospital because of Gall Stones. ;( [ He's fine now (; ] SO, since I was going to outram and so was he, I met up with the friend i had lunch with for dinner with his mum at chinatown while waiting for my mum. VERY NICE MUM.My mum has this delay delay problem. After dinner I made my way to find my grandad. WELL, HE SAY I'M GROWING TOO FAT. We also had some discussions about what I want to do in the future and I realized that there was A LOT I want in life. I jokingly told them I want to be a Young rich Mistress [ SHAO NAI NAI] and my Grandmother couldn't stop laughing... she told me to find a good spouse then. They said I'm the most well behaved grand daugther [ I'm their oldest] and my granfather said if I get married he must drink the tea or something... But I told them about my plans and they said it's good I'm sensible to not like boys now and that I should start dating at 18 or something and they don't mind me not getting married. :D

That was about the only day I went out.

Being rather annoyed by some people who judge too much...
We shouldn't because we are not fit to. GET IT?
SOME PEOPLE just do not!

tomorrow.

Olevel English Oral tomorrow.

'GULP' terrifying.

HEY THERE! I MISS YOU![dumbass Haziqah actually in Batam now]

oh yeah.... my foot.

YES, something made me really unhappy today.
It's about some people's attitude...
No matter you mean it or not, I would like to claim some credit for some friends and classmates not only me.I am not that upset anymore, but I would like to say my piece.
Today, Madam Cheah distributed our sweets and goodies from the prize we won on Friday from the Frisbee game.We all had a different assortment of goodies... And some people just have a bad attitude about it. Just because they didn't get the goodies they want or so... They make a fuss about playing to win those and those who did not play should ought to give up their goodies. I find it kind of annoying... As a class, nobody recognised the efforts of the cheerleaders like Sandi who was screaming her lungs out for everyone. Nor did they acknowledge the fact that our banners were made by Cristal herself through the night, so that our class would be more special and that the players would feel more encouraged. If we could, we could have not bothered to cheer nor make any effort to support the team as non-players. But we did so much and we put in our hearts and souls to cheer loudly.
ALL WE FREAKING GOT WAS: YOU ALL ALSO NEVER PLAY!

F***! [I'm trying not to be vulgar]

I know I did not play. Perhaps I did not deserve that Oreo right? Just because i got a 38/40 for oral? FINE THEN. Nothing much compared to the efforts put in to win the matches right?

I threw it away anyway.

there's no need to.

I was cooped up all day at home.
Eunice came to collect her homework, I really want to go to Marina barrage to take photos.

Because of my laziness,I did not go out to meet THEM. I was singing to the national day songs and laughing at Singapore Idol while eating my Chicken Rice. I actually forgot what i wanted to post about...
[pause for a long while to think]
Still cannot remember. D:
OH. I want to get a Bike and I would like to also go to the botanical gardens to take photos.:D
And I'm obsessed with TopGears videos. I love cars.

AH! I finally remembered the REAL reason why I want to post.
It seems like I will be going to Shanghai for winter then... perhaps for the whole December. I told my aunt I want to celebrate my birthday here.The best part is - I'm going to Shanghai ALONE. YEP. ALONE.I think it will be cool and interesting.Can't wait for Christmas, I got a ' SING SOME CAROLS' mood. Sorry for being random.

adios people.