it's a mixed kind of feeling.

you might just want to skip this post if you hate long winded thoughts



I do not really know what's wrong with me.

sometimes I'm happy.

sometimes I'm sad

sometimes i get frustrated.

sometimes I'm calm

and these emotions all change very quickly. I have no idea why. Maybe because Mid-year is approaching? well, i know it's approaching... But i had to take this chance to let go of my bottled-up thoughts. There are so many things that I've kept inside me for so-long... and i mean very long... maybe more than a year ? well it may sound short but everyday many things happen and things changes so it kind of affects my mood as well... It's not easy to bring personal thoughts out of the mouth.(I'm sure you understand) and i cannot make what i want to say on a blog that everyone will see and read but i am trying to put things down not so directly and long winded-ly . After Teacher's day, i thought that things will be calmer but i did not expect that handling new prefects can be so difficult and tiring as-well. The year-end is coming again and i feel very sad, i do not want this year to end so quickly... why does time fly so fast?

I regretted many things and how i wished time would turn back for me to change things... Whtas done cannot be undone. i understand... well, i seriously do not wish to post about school things anymore...

I also suffer from home depression... i suffer stress from school and family and there is not a time i can find peace for myself... the only escape seems to be when i'm left alone...and left to do alot of thinking... I just hope that maybe in this world, there's someone who can understand me well. I CAN'T TAKE THIS STRESS ANYMORE!

By keeping myself occupied and busy, i seem to not thinnk too much and let my mind wander off too much.

ANYWAY, i would like to thank some of my friends who have kept me alive and tolerated with me.
GAURI- who has beeen the 'light' of my life,neever fail to cheer me up and give me a good laugh.
LIONEL- who always listen to all my Unhappiness and lets me speak my mind very easily.
AQILAH- who comforts me when i feel sad
HARMONY- someone who seems to listen and let me bully
JOAN- the sucker who talks to me and crap with me
WILLIAM - his hair makes me laugh
SHA- nvr fail to make me smile in class
MISS NORAINI- my best buddy who treats me really nice!
and
CLARA- the girl whom i can talk to during maths...

WELL, i have to thank many more people as well... for tolerating my unforseen tempers and emotional breakdowns.
P.s. GAURI, one day i'll tell you EVERYTHING!