C.h.e.r.y.l

2009-11-30T05:05:00.000-08:00

I've moved! my new abode : laughlikeneverbefore.tumblr.com :)

Pleasant sixteenth birthday :)

2009-11-24T07:59:00.000-08:00

Thank You My DEAREST FRIENDS :) I had a very splendid birthday!

Can i post again later? this lazy bug is like stopping me from updating. UGH.

All the right moves.

2009-11-06T05:45:00.000-08:00

So Yeah, How about a longer post?
The Hiatus was definitely not due to spending time on things that ought to be done during the O level period.I have no idea what was going on as well. denial denial... sigh. I have no idea how I would like to start my post or what I would like to share about.

Alright then.

The O levels was definitely not as easy as everyone put it. [it's quite challenging.]
I have 3 more papers left.

Ok. that's it about the O.
I crave for crab, I crave for home cooked meals, I crave for a meal where there will be people sitting around me to enjoy the meal together.It is indeed kinda sad and pathetic to be eating alone all the time isn't it? Oh, not to forget the part where you're INDULGING yourself in the amazing instant noodle that satisfies any empty stomach.YES, Dinner= Instant. D:

Life is just unfair. There are some who are born with a silver spoon in their mouths and are constantly exposed to fine dining. Have family memebers to bring them out for fine dining.Not to mention the companions they have for dinner.When was the last time I actually sat down for a meal with my own family. It seems that that was eons ago. But, OH WELL. What's the point of dissing my own sad life? Forget it.

Let's move on to something appealing to our hearts and soul other than these bullcrappy stuff. PFFT.

How about, MICHAEL BUBLE?
This is such a happy song. SIGH~

Tell me you love it.
Cause I love it.
& yes, I JUST HAVEN'T MET YOU YET.

EPIC CONVERSATION.

2009-10-20T09:25:00.001-07:00

Look at the two retards.

Here's PART of the most epic conversation ever.

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
he's already infatuated with the girl named dorcas

[BENEDICT] says:
HAHAH!
that super smart girl he will never get?

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
YES!
MUST BE!
His hormones are raging.

[BENEDICT] says:
hahah how does he know her anyway

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
ask him...
i have no idea...

[BENEDICT] says:
AARON!!!
AARRROOOONN!!!!
HELLO AARROOONNN!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
BLACKKKKY!

[BENEDICT] says:
YOU THERE!
KNOCK KNOCK@

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHA!

[BENEDICT] says:
i called
he isn't there

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHA!

آرون says:
use the door bell idiot

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHAHA!

[BENEDICT] says:
DING DONG!

آرون says:
sorry.

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
epic!

[BENEDICT] says:
DDIIIIINNNGGG DDOOONNGGG!

آرون says:
thats my neighbours door bell

[BENEDICT] says:
i said DING DONG!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
I'm going to save this message.

[BENEDICT] says:
oh fine
BRING!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHA!

[BENEDICT] says:
BBRRRIIIINNNGGG!!!!
ANYONE THERE?
HHHEEEELLLLLLOOOOOOOOO!

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
NAH.

[BENEDICT] says:
wait, cheryl

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
let's tear the door down

[BENEDICT] says:
check your shadow
Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
my shadow?

[BENEDICT] says:
he might be hiding in there

آرون says:
i'll use glue to stick it back

[BENEDICT] says:
blend in

Cheryl : "okay.. I'm getting paranoid..." says:
HAHAHAHA!

Today, I hanged out with the 2C people! :D

hell part of heaven.

2009-10-19T04:00:00.000-07:00

studying sooooooo hard :)

My vengeful attitude and views has caused me to not be able to forgive and forget.
My Vicious plans of exterminating all I hate and thinking about such things also makes me happy.
These has also caused Gauri to ask me to read the Bible. She said I will learn a thing or two from it.[apparently, gauri reads the bible]

Well, reading JunLin's blog is as good as reading the bible :)

I'm just trying to justify what's right and what's wrong. The wrong should apologise and by apologising, the other party will be able to forgive as well as forget. Isn't it? How can one make a mistake and not be punished? Apart from the fact that it was a mistake after another. I've been trying to justify for myself and all my life, nothing gets justified. EVER.

Well, I found out another cool fact today. My Dad actually learned to play the guitar after going to the catholic church with his friends. MY DAD GOES TO A CHURCH? That was what I asked myself. But, that was eons ago. Haha, I'm going to learn to play the guitar too... My dad promised to teach me. But, my fingers are just not cooperative enough :/

Back to studying I go. TATA for now.

songs that spark memories

2009-10-18T01:00:00.000-07:00

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
It seems the natural thing to do
Tonight no one's gonna find us
We'll leave the world behind us
When I make love to you
Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And hope that deep inside you feel it too
Tonight our spirits will be climbing
To the sky lit up with diamonds
When I make love to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do
Is to get close to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And soon this old world will seem brand new
Tonight we will both discover
How friends turn into lovers
When I make love to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do
Is to get close to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you.

oh well, it's random. But, we all sing to old songs during physics, I don't know why.

graduation marks like a fullstop.

2009-10-18T00:37:00.000-07:00

byebye school.

Indeed, not a single tear was shed during graduation. Instead of being a rather
solemn affair, it was in fact more joyful than sad. There were crazy laughter , crazy pranks, hugs,no kisses and lots of fun.

graduation is like a full stop to our sentences, it marks the end.
Don't be disheartened or reluctant to leave. We'll all meet again, it's fate and destiny to even be brought together as friends, classmates, schoolmates or even enemies. We'll not let our fate end like that. I'll miss my dearest friends very much.

I would like to thank all the teachers and friends who had spent their precious hours making and preparing gifts for me. Especially Aqilah, I almost cried reading your letter. Thank you very very very much.

I was quite disappointed that I did not get to spend time with my classmates after the event as I had to rush off during reception for my math tuition. D;
Oh well, it's ok, no point crying over spilled milk.

O levels are coming in less than a week. Work hard!

running around without you

2009-10-13T07:45:00.000-07:00

Yes,I have indeed been running around.
Everyday, East to West ; Ubi to Bukit Timah. I'm tired D;
Today, I had 5 hours of math! How cool right? I'm having A math tomorrow. Looking forward to another day of five hours of math.

I am really disheartened to see how some people carry such evil and mean thoughts. Why can't they be nice? She is such a religious person and yet, she speaks with a mouth full of dirt. Profanities, mean words that could hurt so many others. I have been hurled such profanities since young and it only shows how uncivilised she is, no matter how she might be very religious and holds such strong beliefs for her religion which I would say, is messed up. Like, seriously. Not only that, her thoughts and the way she speak of others is just nasty. Why can't they just be nice? Is it difficult to share? Is it difficult to not make false accusations of others? Darren is only 7 and Jo is a nice lady. When have they offended her? Our maid has been working for almost 10 years and she still harbour suspicions of her. WHY? WHY? WHY?

That's the limit.

2009-10-06T05:59:00.000-07:00

I am really really apologetic for all these temperamental nonsense coming from me.
Perhaps, we are graduating and I want to lessen the bond between all of us so that it will all be easier when that day comes.
That's a selfish thought.
I really do not enjoy all the games that you people play. It is NOT MY GAME.Therefore, I refuse to join in any activities that will be planned in the near future or whatsoever, but, please do enjoy yourselves.
I'll be in China from 6-27 Dec. but, I should be able to come online as I will bring my camera and my laptop there. :D

Back to Chemistreeeeeeeeeeeee.

bad days.

2009-10-02T06:57:00.000-07:00

you people never understand how it feels to have a negative self confidence level.

so shut up ok.

I am accepting my new hair. IT'LL GROW... well, I'm trying [trying real hard] to stay positive.

It'll take some time before I will be able to regain my old self back.

Byebye.

To my beloved LR.
Here's a Thank You note for you!
after all these years as friend. I am going to proudly call you my BPF EVER! I really want to thank you very much for all that you have taught me and guided me along in.In almost many aspects of my small and insignificant life, you have made a mark for yourself there. Whenever I seem to be unable to do my work [especially the english ones and the prefectorial duties we shared eg. speeches and scripts and more speeches and scripts.] you will be there to help me in all those that I cannot do well. You have also been a great person I could confide in, whenever I am feeling low, you'll never fail to cheer me up in an instance [that's how effective you are man!] and then, I could tell you almost everything under the sun, stars and moon! This little thank you note can go on forever but I'll keep it short :)
Take care and Thank you a million!
Good luck for your O levels and I wish you well in everything you do.

P.S. and the Porsche part too. :)

P.S.S. BPF= Best Pig Friend

Loves,
Pig wong

all alone?

2009-09-27T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hello.
Well, maybe to only Gauri, since she seems to be my only loyal reader as usual.
Like Glenn said '' Sometimes, life just sucks eh?''
It's SO TRUE.So,do not worry. It sucks, SOMETIMES.[how positive]
Well, it's almost 30 days to O level.[ BREATHING DIFFICULTY, AFTER A LONG RECOVERY TIME...]YEAP, 30 DAYS TO MY NIGHTMARE! Just can't believe it. I studied with my cousin at his house over the weekend at Choa Chu Kang and I would say, that type of studying environment makes you want to study even more.it's just super duper tense.

Anyways,I was just thinking again. My dad said I have the lousiest attitude at home.He says my 'HATE EVERYTHING' attitude will result in me suffering in life, in the future and I'll not be any successful if I carry 'this' attitude with me.He says I behave exactly like this WOMAN whom I hate, KIM LIAN.She's OLD and she is MEAN on top of that, she has a very traditional chinese mindset of how boys are treasures.I mean, seriously, what can boys do? I can do what most boys can do. Boys are only a bunch of egoistic animal that are extremely annoying.[right? unless you can change my mind] As I was saying, my dad said my terrible attitude of rebutting to everything they say is the worst and trying to stand up for myself is wrong as well.When I said I hate this or that and how they are practicing favouritism at home, they will scold me for being insesitive and tell me that I am behaving like Kim Lian. He say I will be ALL BY MYSELF in the future, I will grow old and cranky and nobody will like me at alI.That is also because I am not going to get married, I will grow old alone and become something like KIM LIAN. I am scared, even I do not like her. What if I really become something I hate? I believe I do not need anyone like I always tell the boys,' Do I look like I need help?' yeah man... I am going to prove my daddy WRONG.

wish me luck.

Weared out by life.

2009-09-24T08:42:00.000-07:00

Life has never offered me a near perfect moment. All I want is some peaceful moments where the demanding society stops, slows and just take a break. That will most probably not happen till my O levels end. I just cried in the car while going to school this morning because i felt so upset and dissapointed that they were so inconsiderate of my feelings. The sarcasm, the harsh words, that look in their eyes and the love you cannot see from their faces. I am a human not a machine. I really cannot go on this way, I will crash and fall.

All i need to find is Yoon Ji Hoo or Gu Jun Pyo. I share the same birthday as the actress who played Geum Jan Di. :D

ABC

2009-09-20T07:27:00.001-07:00

FOR MY BELOVED GAURO.

ENJOYIT!

The Beatles.

2009-09-19T03:27:00.000-07:00

I'm SOOOO going to get that Beatles compiled special edition CD.
It just brings back fantastic memories of my childhood. All the singing in the car together. Not to forget how it is actually GOOD music. And The Beatles is definitley a legend.

Here's a song from them.:D
I want to hold your hand.

P.s I bought Colbie Caillat's Album .

The baby in the bus:

Today, when I took a bus from bukit timah to toa pah yoh, I saw a little boy in a pram staring in my direction right after he boarded. He was ALL SMILES. He looked so adorable! He just sat there in his pram staring all over the bus curiously, then the baby and I made eye contact. We were staring into each others eye and his was filled with lots of innocence, eyes that still have lots to see and learn. He continued smiling at me and when I finally smiled back widely at him, he gave out a loud chuckle which caused most of the bus commuters to turn and look at what the baby boy was looking at. Although it was kind of silly ... I was actully quite happy because he made my day. I will never forget this baby! I WANT A BABY! except I have to adopt one then. :D

this bond between us, cant be broken.

2009-09-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

I'm SOOOO Tired, rushing art is definitely not fun. I regret. PROCRASTINATION. D:
Anyway, Here's another one of those song I LOVE.

Yep, Phil Collins fantastic voice and oh sooooo hot Tarzan.

Not going to let some things bother me. I treasured you as a friend. I kept quiet at moments where I could have been irritated. But, don't you think you are going too far? You need to search yourself and self reflect a lot about this. SOMETIMES... YOU JUST DON'T GET IT. EVEN FOR ME. I myself commit mistakes that I might not be aware of. So, I'm not going to blame anyone for this.

Yellow Submarine~

2009-09-11T20:21:00.000-07:00

Yes, This is Yellow Submarine by The Beatles! My favourite song to sing along when I was young

HEY, Jesse's new Music video.* cheeky smiles*
BODY LANGUAGE FEATURING T-PAIN!

100th POST!

2009-09-11T09:01:00.001-07:00

HELLO. This is my 100th post!
I've been wanting to save this post for something more special, BUT I CAN'T WAIT.

Happy Birthday to my dad who claims and offered to give me a blackberry when i clearly didn't ask for one.

The holiday is clearly not a holiday at all right?

I need a long long break to calm my nerves. Everything is wrong about me, I eat slower, I eat last at every meal, HOW CAN THIS BE POSSIBLE. My ferocious APPETITE is GONE and that is SCARY. I didn't go out with any of my schoolmates this holiday, neither did I study with them. I went to school everyday, YOU GOT ME, EVERYDAY to do my Art Coursework. [ I just need to complete it ]

I only went out ONE DAY. That was Wednesday. I went from almost extreme East to almost extreme West to meet my friends for lunch then to go for my tuition. It was worth it, after all, it has been almost 10 long months since I met them. It was nice to meet them and still have so much nonsense to talk about. Although we didn't realy have anything to do, it was nice meeting them. - Awesome people wear awesome clothes- It is weird to like meet them alone initially, after all the scandal nonsense and it has been 10 long months after all. AND THEY ARE REALLY REALLY NONSENSICAL! Well, tuition was really fun too. I was called INNOCENT. :D totally am. * winks *
During tuition, my mama called me to ask me to go to Outram to visit my ahgong who was in hospital because of Gall Stones. ;( [ He's fine now (; ] SO, since I was going to outram and so was he, I met up with the friend i had lunch with for dinner with his mum at chinatown while waiting for my mum. VERY NICE MUM.My mum has this delay delay problem. After dinner I made my way to find my grandad. WELL, HE SAY I'M GROWING TOO FAT. We also had some discussions about what I want to do in the future and I realized that there was A LOT I want in life. I jokingly told them I want to be a Young rich Mistress [ SHAO NAI NAI] and my Grandmother couldn't stop laughing... she told me to find a good spouse then. They said I'm the most well behaved grand daugther [ I'm their oldest] and my granfather said if I get married he must drink the tea or something... But I told them about my plans and they said it's good I'm sensible to not like boys now and that I should start dating at 18 or something and they don't mind me not getting married. :D

That was about the only day I went out.

Being rather annoyed by some people who judge too much...
We shouldn't because we are not fit to. GET IT?
SOME PEOPLE just do not!

tomorrow.

2009-08-18T05:10:00.000-07:00

Olevel English Oral tomorrow.

'GULP' terrifying.

HEY THERE! I MISS YOU![dumbass Haziqah actually in Batam now]

oh yeah.... my foot.

2009-08-11T05:36:00.000-07:00

YES, something made me really unhappy today.
It's about some people's attitude...
No matter you mean it or not, I would like to claim some credit for some friends and classmates not only me.I am not that upset anymore, but I would like to say my piece.
Today, Madam Cheah distributed our sweets and goodies from the prize we won on Friday from the Frisbee game.We all had a different assortment of goodies... And some people just have a bad attitude about it. Just because they didn't get the goodies they want or so... They make a fuss about playing to win those and those who did not play should ought to give up their goodies. I find it kind of annoying... As a class, nobody recognised the efforts of the cheerleaders like Sandi who was screaming her lungs out for everyone. Nor did they acknowledge the fact that our banners were made by Cristal herself through the night, so that our class would be more special and that the players would feel more encouraged. If we could, we could have not bothered to cheer nor make any effort to support the team as non-players. But we did so much and we put in our hearts and souls to cheer loudly.
ALL WE FREAKING GOT WAS: YOU ALL ALSO NEVER PLAY!

F***! [I'm trying not to be vulgar]

I know I did not play. Perhaps I did not deserve that Oreo right? Just because i got a 38/40 for oral? FINE THEN. Nothing much compared to the efforts put in to win the matches right?

I threw it away anyway.

there's no need to.

2009-08-09T09:01:00.000-07:00

I was cooped up all day at home.
Eunice came to collect her homework, I really want to go to Marina barrage to take photos.

Because of my laziness,I did not go out to meet THEM. I was singing to the national day songs and laughing at Singapore Idol while eating my Chicken Rice. I actually forgot what i wanted to post about...
[pause for a long while to think]
Still cannot remember. D:
OH. I want to get a Bike and I would like to also go to the botanical gardens to take photos.:D
And I'm obsessed with TopGears videos. I love cars.

AH! I finally remembered the REAL reason why I want to post.
It seems like I will be going to Shanghai for winter then... perhaps for the whole December. I told my aunt I want to celebrate my birthday here.The best part is - I'm going to Shanghai ALONE. YEP. ALONE.I think it will be cool and interesting.Can't wait for Christmas, I got a ' SING SOME CAROLS' mood. Sorry for being random.

adios people.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle.

2009-08-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

Truthfully,it is I'M VERY CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE.

UGH.Why are human beings so complicated? who created the art of being hypocritical? Being caught in the middle is no good.I wondered if life would be better if i were a boy [ song runs into head ]. Boys are less complicated aren't they? [ at least when it comes to friendship ] I feel so guilty. I really do not mean anything, but when something happens, it is hard to change reality and it is impossible to pretend nothing happened.Stop blaming or being unhappy over nothing, just reflect on what you did. Just think about what led to all this, do you seriously think we all want this?[do not question about this]

BTW, I got full marks for prelims oral reading, I hope Mrs. Bala wouldn't change the marks... [ my fantastic guide teacher, oral examiner and fantastic Indian Dancer. LOVE HER]

sigh... The world is so complicating. Ignorance is definitely bliss. Living in my own world is even better I supposed. So much has happended, and it just goes on and on...I would blog all day long if I had to write everything out. It's difficult to give everything now, I have to keep part of me to myself, I cannot give it all away.[ I am not sad, really]I need to prevent myself from being upset.I am still my chirpy self, still the GOOGOOGAGA over hot stuff[ as in boys(as in very very hot) ] girl.* note: I used the word GIRL. teehee. Being optimistic is the way to a happier self and life. I SHALL NOT LIVE LIFE WITH REGRETS.

Somehow I feel burdened when people trust me and tell me things. I really apologise to my BRA THER. sorry... Ok. Anyway, CLARA YONG : thanks for being so AMAZING. You are truly beautiful inside out. I swear that I am an ass. HAHAHA. I just felt so upset just now, cause i was crying for gujunpyo[jujunbiao]. AWWWWWW... Life is really unfair right? Does it mean cos we're short, we're destined to find shorter guys? D; speaking of which, JESSE MCCARTNEY's GOING BLONDE SOON. LOVE HIM BLONDE. which reminds me... I miss them.I hate myself.HAZIQAH, THERE's THIS REALLY AMAZINGLY ADORABLE GIRL CALLED CHERYL WONG MISSING YOU LIKE HELL IN A SAD PLACE CALLED MANJUSRI.

I feel like a bad person.

i don't care how people judge me, from now on, I am going to be ignorant.
I JUDGE PEOPLE A LOT. HAHAHA.

A crazy girl with lots to tell, but doesn't know how...

I don't know how to tell what kind of emotion this is, but i know it's making me feel weird.

it's been so long, since i posted so long, before i end...
THANK YOU HUI ZHEN, GLENN, SEAN, YING YING, DA GE , PEIYI, SAY NGOH and HO ZHENG HUI[ basically, DA FAMILY] for making life much more wonderful and special for me.

AND... AQILAH, don't fret.
and... Marcus, you can always talk to me.
and... Elias, HA HA HA.

signing off. <3

ahhhh~

2009-08-02T07:16:00.001-07:00

FINALLY TOLD SOMEONE ABOUT IT.
SIGH.
MISSING....

THANKS CLARA!

sigh

2009-08-01T07:31:00.000-07:00

I'd rather give it all up.
Take it. you can have it all.
I don't want anything.

Just 2 days. 3 people. I guess I do miss everything.

The past is sweet, not bitter. the future looks bitter now.

Should change then.

GLENN, HUI ZHEN! Thanks for those times.

AIYAH. I MISS OBSabah so much thanks to Haziqah.
Aaron, Benedict, Syaz and ALL.
[i dun care if they are my scandals]

TUITION CHANGED TO SATURDAY 2-4PM. SO HAPPY.
I CAN SEE.....

okok. shall stop here. heehee

HATE

2009-07-13T08:03:00.000-07:00

HATE YOU HATE YOU HATE YOU.
dun ever talk to me.
LIKE I NEVER GET CRITICIZED ENOUGH.
YOU'RE NOT WORTH MY KINDNESS.
I KNOW I SUCK.
I AM JUST BUT A FAT UGLY FOOL THAT SHOULD JUST DISAPPEAR IN THIS WORLD.
I tried my best to be nice. Although I can be mean. BUT TO YOU, I tried hard to be a nice friend.
I KNOW I AM FAT AND UGLY. DUN NEED TO GO COMPARE. Not like I've never been called Ugly or FAT in my life. I always turn it into a joke... And all the sarcasm used only makes it worse.
Just STOP IT okay?
I BEG.
sometimes... People like me cant take it too.
I have ZERO ego. ZERO self confidence. HAPPY NOW?
ALL ALONG IT'S just a FAKE HAPPY SMILE like i said.
FRIENDS? NAH.I'll forgo them if I have to.
I'll just be a lonely old woman like my dad says I'll be if i continue being so stubborn. Maybe I might be after all. D:

sigh... I hate myself.
I need to find my space to cry.

tomorrow's a new week

2009-07-12T06:17:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow's a new week.

Every week is eventful.

Today, I went to Ubin with my friends from Shanghai. AND.... I MIGHT be spending winter in shanghai right after O levels. I'll be travelling there alone. HOW FRIIKIN COOL IS THAT? :D

Sigh~ tomorrow is 13 july.

IF only things were like they USED TO BE. I feel like crying now. BYE.

Michael Jackson.

2009-06-26T05:07:00.000-07:00

His death made me realise how brittle life is.

Nobody knew that he was going to die. do they?
When I woke up to another day... the first news... Michael Jackson just died...
I WAS LIKE: WHAT?!
& I felt upset... Immediately.

Nobody knows when they are going to die.

Treasure your life. It's not worth to lose it for anybody... other than self.

Words are sometimes pretty useless. (A difficult thing for me to admit, because I love words, and in general I regard them as quite powerful.) In situations of deep pain, very few of us have anything brilliant to say — our words are not adequate to the situation.

you're like :D

2009-06-25T08:11:00.000-07:00

Cheryl is smiling.

Happiness is something that is hard to be faked.
It'll hurt your cheeks to wear a fake smile.
it hurts doesn't it? when you're asked to smile for pictures?
but it does not really hurt when you just smile because you really feel happy... somehow, you just don't feel the cheeks aching.
IT'S WEIRD. But, this shows how happiness cannot be faked.
A smile is a priceless thing. Use it in the right way. It's the best gift one can give.
So, SMILE and the world SMILES with you.
Pass a smile on and on.
Make someone's day. Just SMILE.
you'll feel the power of a smile, especially when you smile at someone and they smile right back at you!
If you feel sad or down... just sit upright, SMILE to yourself, breathe in, close your eyes, breathe out, open your eyes and tell yourself that everything will be alright in the end. EVERYTHING WILL END. [think of all the happiest things]
Do not be stubborn. JUST SMILE.

PEACE OUT :D

You're like Yoon Ji Hoo to me.
&shedidnotendupwithhimintheend.butiknowthiscrushain'tgoingaway.theonlythingthatkeepsmewishingonawishingstar.wonderifheknowshe'sallithinkaboutatnight.itsuckstoseeyouhurt.
idontknowhyitjusthurts.

2009-06-23T04:53:00.000-07:00

Learned to never get too close.

AH, Morning Glory rocks.
Had a FUN time with them, painting for Guide's carnival.

my injury left an ugly scar... D:
BUT, IT'S OKAY. It's nothing...[ i would be lying]

Twitter-ed, so i can follow Jesse McCartney :D

met KIM. met CAROLINE[she's leaving D;].met Haziqah-and i still want to meet her.

I so do not MISS school.

Hating You.

cycled to many new places, walked like crazy too :D

i have no wishes to continue my post.

LOL!

2009-06-13T05:24:00.001-07:00

so cute! WONDERBABY!
SHE CAN DANCE!
SO ADORABLE!

remedy

2009-06-09T06:33:00.000-07:00

The best cure to all sadness... HAZIQAH. I'm feeling much better now.I had a BLAST!

something changed.

2009-06-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey. It's been a long time since i posted yeah? Well, why would I? I never understand how i feel anymore. Chinese O's Over. that was random. Ah. SHIT. I'm confused.Chinese O's over... ain't that great?Did i just repeat myself? SHIT, that was stupid. I feel stupid... so it's okay. Has it been eventful? Meaningful? Joyful? Maybe, maybe not.Seriously, what am i doing here? Ever since my blog got spammed by some immature creatures, i hate my blog. But whatever the case is,[speaking' like a good ol' lawyer :D] It's over. Case closed!Been feeling moodier and moodier, I don't feel like going to school, don't feel like talking and i feel so trapped, or lost. I seem to get lost in everything i do. My mind's blowing. Thanks Sha! Thank You for letting me get it off my chest. Does this post sound random? Because i feel like i'm getting lost here too.Something is wrong, with me. & I'm pining for you, really. I think i missed you alot. Now, i don't even know who i am anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't understand why am i like this. I hate myself... I hate the people around me, every little thing irks. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. I feel like throwing myself into a river... drown in my tears perhaps. Why can't we turn back time? Why am i born like this? Why am i born uglier? Why must people comment about looks? Why must people always think they are everything? WHy must people be so annoying? Why do people put on a mask? Why can't they be themselves? Why am i a girl? Why must some people tell lies? Why do some people behave badly? Why are some people so mean? Why are some people so nice, and some not? Why must people call me ugly? Why aren't some people sensitive to other's emotions? Why is that man sitting on the bench himself? Why do i hate her? Why is he making me feel weird? Why do i pine for this? Why am i missing that night? Why do i feel a heartache? Why do i feel like crying? Why must i look like dora? Wh can't she be more original? Why must she act cute? Why must some people make themselves miserable? Why does she make me feel like i am no longer special? Why am i so sad? Why is the song making me feel like crying? Why don't fairies exist? Why can't i be special? Why? Why? Why? I hate myself. Just leave me to wallow in self pity. Nothing is going my way, and i don't know where to go? I never had a good rest. not until today. not for a very long time... I feel like breaking down. Why must shit happen? PLEASE. PLEASE STOP IT. I KNOW I AM JUST BUT A USELESS GIRL. WHAT CAN A GIRL DO? FUCK WOMAN. THEY EXISTS FOR NOTHING RIGHT? IS THIS WHAT THEY MEAN? A GIRL HAS NO DIGNITY OR STAND JUST BECAUSE THIS IS A CHINESE FAMILY? IS THIS WHY THEY HATE ME? WHY DO THEY CALL ME UGLY? I KNOW I AM UGLY. I KNOW THIS SINCE I WAS VERY YOUNG. BUT CONSTANT REMINDER ONLY BREAKS THE HEART. AND I FEEL LIKE I EXIST FOR NOTHING. PLEASE PEOPLE BITCH. BE HUMBLE, DON'T PISS THE FUCKING HELL OUTTA ME. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. SHOOOOOOOOOO! I'VE HAD ENOUGH. PLEASE. I KNOW I'M JUST SOME ORDINARY UGLY DUCKLING THAT WILL DIE AS AN UGLY DUCKLING, STOP SHOEING ME ALL THAT CRAP. STOP COMMENTING. YOU'RE NOT FIT TO. I HATE COMPLIMENTS. I ALWAYS RECEIVE SACARSM, SACARSM MAKES UP MY LIFE OF COMMENTS.SOMETIMES, I JUST DONT MEAN IT. BUT, I'M LOSING MYSELF. MY COURAGE. MAYBE I'M NO LONGER CHERYL? MAYBE I CAN BE PUSHED AROUND EASILY. MAYBE IT'S NOT NECCESSARY TO RESPECT PEOPLE LIKE ME? MAYBE IT'S NOT IMPORTANT TO APOLOGIZE TO ME SINCE I'M CHERYL? MAYBE I AM JUST A TOY? MAYBE I SHOULD NOT EXIST?

I REALLY HATE MYSELF NOW. ALL ALONG ACTUALLy.

ALAMAK. I really cant stay happy for long. HAZIQAH, i miss you!

cheers!

2009-05-11T04:27:00.000-07:00

HEY THERE!
yes, it's mid years i know.
but i dun really care though.
just realized that in NURUL HAZIQAH's blog, I'm labeled, HAPPY PEEPS. therefore, no more sad posts. although i may still be sad.
& I'm so HAPPY FOR THIS WOMAN! she got into TP dance! she's happy and i'm very glad for her.
& to all my friends OUT there. literally out of manjusri, like nurul haziqah and caroline & kim xieeeeeee...
MAKE NEW FRIENDS,BUT KEEP THE OLD.
ONE IS SILVER AND THE OTHER's GOLD.

I've had the weirdest dreams in my life. i swear, i remember. to you get out of my dreams!
:D
HAHA. alright. :D

angry

2009-04-17T05:09:00.001-07:00

I'm really really angry, cause i feel disrespected, i may not be a friend... but i am your classmate as well as a prefect. I hate myself, no matter how hard i may try to like myself, i only end up hating myself more...
hating and not forgiving makes myself hate myself... but i don't care...

AND OH NO!
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT ELIAS SAID WAS NOT TRUE NOT TRUE... THIS CANNOT BE POSSIBLE. OH GOD!

if forgiving was gonna be easy, the whole world would be free of guilt... and sorry isnt a word to be said and taken lightly, sorry doesn't work said too many times.

misery?

2009-03-23T04:17:00.000-07:00

Life never seem to pause, break, slow down for me... I need to rest.

dont listen to me RANT.

this is the only way i pur my feelings out.

Holidays? no, i don't think so... I had insomnia, SERIOUS Family trouble and i so much work...

What have i done?What? Sorry, but filial piety no longer exists in me. How can they understand when all they do is talk , lecture, scold, beat and not even listen, i tried to speak, but what do they do? shut me up! And they claim they understand what is going on in my life,all the verbal abuse from her, treating me like a cheap slut and they want me to treat her like a grandmother, not an enemy. Why do I have to be the one? Because I am a GIRL.my useless mother, never failed to aggravate the whole situation, because nobody ever understand me, they only know how to blame me, all thesee years, i was blamed for everything... BUT HEY! I AM THE VICTIM HERE. I... can't go on. I wished i could be brought to a girls home or some place where they will keep me away from THEM. I am better off alone.

I'm so happy to be back in school. :D

to hazel ang!

2009-03-19T03:51:00.001-07:00

TO HAZEL ANG !
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
A THOUSAND AND ONE APOLOGIES FOR ONLY POSTING TODAY...
Dear Bimbo, YOU ARE FINALLY 15! i won't ask you to grow up and be mature... or anything like that, because I want you to be who you are! & always as crazy because I LIKE IT! [just like me] CRAZY....
Thank you for being crazy with me all the time...
Thank you for spending your Christmas with me...
Thank you for being at the prefect's chalet, making yucky chocolate...and celebrating my Birthday... sabo-ing me.
Thank you for FORCING me to watch twilight with you and zeeyee[the pig]
Thank you for bringing me to some dracula place to eat...
Thank you for being such a wonderful JUNIOR.
Thank you , & and HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

NOW, don't get angry that this is late... I have no time to come and blog and because i don't really like to blog alot... ;D [i know you're jealous cause i wished wei liang and william...] HAHAHAHA!but this font is bigger!

DREAM- priscilla ahn

2009-03-06T21:19:00.000-08:00

was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream

are you there?

2009-03-04T06:19:00.000-08:00

Today, I realised, why have i believed in god all these years? I wonder, how can i always say: 'god help me!' when i have never ever seen him, and his existence is not proven...

I have never ever found someone to really confide into, I want help. I want a pair of ears to really listen, but no... I find that trusting is too hard... i can't share my problems as easily as i thought i would... no... It is so tormenting to try to cry it out, but not show it, just store all these hatred, sorrow, angst inside me. Not that i appear to be a very sad person, it is just a false front, you see me laugh, smile, play... but, it's a tough war inside...why must my life seem more miserable than some? i am not the most miserable on earth, but i am feeling so miserable... I want to be happy inside not just the outside.
Why must i have people to come and mess up my life...Please stop messing my life up... please, stop all these prejudices. i really want to be a boy.Please, treat me like your daugther, please be the grandmother i've always read about in stories, please UNDERSTAND ME.Please, be fair. Please, stop messing up my life. give me my space...just leave me alone, let me cry alone.

but,
Please, God, save me... take all these miseries away... It's just so hard to be myself.[if only God will take these miseries away]
when i grow up, i want to leave these miseries. I wanto to leave them where they belong, and i will find a place where i belong... ;D

i cried.

2009-02-21T05:38:00.000-08:00

Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.

* cried at this.

7 is my lucky number. IT MUST BE! haha.
- my locker is number 7 ;D aka, 0702[usedtobe]
-last year it's 0707.
-this is post no. 77
-the bus i took to Singapore indoor stadium was 52, add them up, it's 7
-Daniel Henny's birthday is on 29 November, 9-2 is 7
- and some other crap that made me think 7 is my lucky no.

;D

it's decided, i like no.7 now...

Seaside by the kooks

2009-02-10T04:42:00.000-08:00

This is such a beautiful song by The Kooks. Cristal and I have been singing to each other for the past few weeks. I LOVE IT!

i mean, just look at the lyrics... although it's only 1 and a half minutes... i swear, it will be the best 1 and a half minute you ever spent. ;D

Do you want to go to the seaside?
I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go
I fell in love at the seaside
I handled my charm with time and slight of hand

Do you want to go to the seaside?
I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go
I fell in love at the seaside
She handled her charm with time and slight of hand, and oh

But I'm just trying to love you
In any kind of way
But I find it hard to love you girl
When you're far away
Away

Do you want to go to the seaside?
I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go
But I fell in love on the seaside
On the seaside
In the seaside

happy birthdays!

2009-02-04T06:38:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY To WANG WEI LIANG[PIG] AND NGOH WILLIAM[weiliang]!

pig, you're 15 years old already! hahah. i'm yet to be 16... dun worry i'll still kick your ass. And, thanks for being such a 'wonderful' pig friend. kicking my butt for the whole year, making me trip and fall and bickering non-stop with me. ;D

er william? crap one lah! hahah! prefects go do your duty. i know you're an idiot who doesn't treat me like a girl. i will not forget who whacked me up so 'brutally' at the chalet on my birthday... hmmph!-you cant hit me on my birthday anymore

Truth

2009-01-27T05:00:00.000-08:00

In seeking the Truth,

do not imagine it is something out there to be found.

It is not a ray of light from the heavens that hit you suddenly.

The discovery of the Truth

is the discovery that you are part of it.

It is the discovery that the Truth is everything,

including yourself.

It is the discovery that you are but an embodiment

of the Three Universal Characteristics.

You are physically and mentally impermanent.

You are existentially dissatisfied due to lack of Enlightenment.

You have no substantial self.

The more deeply you discover this,

the more in line with Truth you are,

the more enlightened you become.

& most of the time, the Truth is always bitter.

Just to say ...

2009-01-22T04:37:00.000-08:00

Well, i know i can no longer hold this feeling inside me.
I cannot battle these emotions everyday.

I guess it was all just a misunderstanding, then i began reading blogs.. then, i get hurt, so bad. But i never wanted to believe you wouldn't trust me, cause i trusted you as my dearest friend, suddenly everything was beginning to turn cold and harsh, for us both. I didn't understand why initially, that's when i begin reading blog, i feel so upset. I didn't dare talk to any of you... especially you, i was afraid, i admit, i was a coward, i could never handle relationships well. But, i never wanted to end this one. Thinking about all the times we spent, laughing at each other's joke, the never ending laughter from us both.. it was indeed unforgettable. I'm sorry i still can't face you, as i said i was really afraid, afraid of all these awkward situations that can really hurt. every time i encounter something, you're always on my mind, ALWAYS. It's like the automatic urge to want to sms you and share all these with you, and only you. Because it's a habit, being with you has became part of my life, and i swear, without you, life has changed. i know i am greedy, but i yearn to be with you again. spending all those time with you. I miss you. goodbye.

-i hope you read this.
believe me, i believe you.

i decided to blog

2009-01-12T04:03:00.001-08:00

This is such a nice photo.

Well, i decided i should blog. Cause, I'm BORED , actually tired, i have to wake up at 5.34 am every morning and try to steal a little sleep every morning... 5 minutes is seriously satisfying!
WHY did that stupid school shift away!? I MISS HOLIDAYS~ and, school is seriously stressing. I'm stressing over art... ITS SO HARD TO SCORE! my GOD! STRESSSS!!!!!! & everybody is ranting about o levels. o levels and more o levels~ argh! its only 12 jan. well... lessons are starting to end late now... but nvm, i never liked to come home early anyway.so.... it's a blessing.

alright, i shall go busi-fy myself with OBSabah presentation!

GOODBYE!

2009-01-04T01:13:00.000-08:00

ALL RIGHT,

I MISS CAROLINE FEBRIANTY TOO!

LOVES,

CHERYL

Dear me.

2009-01-02T06:07:00.000-08:00

I'm very physically & mentally tired.

after a tiring day of thinking & OGLeading the most horrendous class.

Thinking; I just begin to think bout my future, after all I'm sec 4.

Poly? JC? I've no idea. & well, i thought even further than that...

I was thinking, if i have such grudges against my family, & people always say that family is more important than friends, i wonder, do i have to depend on this family when i grow up in the future? depend as in if something happens to me? so,i was thinking like, set up my own family? LIKE ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE. i want to be a truly independent person, i feel rather guilty that i have somehow decided that i do not want to live life obstructed by family traditions or religious beliefs, but, to be truly free from my current life, filled with traditional beliefs that woman will not succeed or that these traditions are just plain bias to the male? I want to be a free-thinker. seriously, a free thinker, somebody who thinks freely... It's not that i do not believe in god or buddha or anything, but i would like to be versatile in my thoughts and beliefs. I want to be clear about what i want in life, not what i have been taught to want. I want this to be my life.

I want my life to be in my own hands.

p.s. I wish i can speak to someone who can understand this.

I'm Cheryl.

Cheryl Wong.

2009

2009-01-01T00:32:00.000-08:00

Yay...[ i wonder if its said with much enthusiasm or not?]
well, i wonder if we should be happy that it's finally 2009 or not, because:
no.1: 2008 is gone, which tells us how fast time flies.
no.2: 2009, i'm taking my O levels.

I'm really worried.

& I've been thinking... When i grow up, do i want to live like how my life has been ruled? with all the rules set when i was born, living with all these rules all my life or live my life the way i rule it?

reminiscing about the times i had gone through in 2008, it's hard to decide if it's been a good or bad one? hmm, it was definitely an interesting one though, filled with so much excitement.

January
-OG leading 1E, with Haziqah & Kim [ & this year too.]
-In 3D. upset at first?[or maybe till now?]
February
-Debates[14 feb-official loser day]
-caroline's birthday party
March
-total business.
-preparations for school anniversary?

ok got dates mixed up arnd here!

SCH ANNIVESARY!
haha. unforgettable memories.

IFD, CAMBODIA, TEACHER's DAY, ELECTIONS, MANJUSRI IDOL, NATONAL DAY, && all the bits& pieces of the year.
where things happen, where stress overtakes me and i breakdown and cry .

& an UNFORGETTABLE SABAH trip.
where i met many new & interesting people.

& days of fun in school, time spent with Gauri, Aqilah,Cristal,Sha,Weiliang, ZeeYee, Hazel, Jun Lin, Lionel, William, Phone lay... & all the people i interact with?

hmmm... Sec 4s GONE... i'll miss KIM and Haziqah and many many seniors.

HAHAHa.
alright i'll keep these memories...
even if they are bad cause they are a part of me and how i become stronger and grow.

Thank you Gauri.
Everytime i break down or feel pset or feel stressed. U are always there for me...
When we part this year, I know i'll definitely cry...
& I want you to still be my friend... FOREVER.
then we move to perth eh? and drive our porsche.
;D

bye 2008.& happynew year peeps

i don't like!

2008-12-28T01:47:00.000-08:00

Seriously, I do know that I'm a vice-head prefect in school. yes i do. and so much for leadership responsibility. I really miss being an ordinary student, free from all these leadership responsibilities, and be free to be who I really am, what i want to do, or say.

I do not like to be pressurized or put into a dilemma by just using my leadership role to suppress me. I mean, come on right? I'm a human too.

'' I mean seriously, as a leader i would expect you to...''
Whatever! Stop using this against me.

everyday, all the time, anytime.

I doubt my own capabilities... i do.

Smile& my worries will disappear ;D i'llkeepsmiling!

2008-12-22T22:23:00.000-08:00

You Are a Mediator

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist.

A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around.

You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you.

You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people.

Your strength: Your devotion

Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness

Your power color: Lilac

Your power symbol: Heart

Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.

You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.

Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love

Your gemstone: Citrine

Your flower: Chrysanthemum

Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

yumm.

2008-12-22T03:07:00.000-08:00

YUMM YUMM. had a satisfying prata meal. =)

i did not sleep at all last night. i couldn't, all thanks to Gloria Jeans Coffee.

stayed up practically all night, except for some eye shut around 2-3 am.

sat up all night and thought about the recent happenings...

felt upset, felt happy.

finally went to school... for OGL stuff.

spent the afternoon with Gauri at Parkway Parade.

went to borders, got my book. TRUST NO ONE.

can't stand not having a book around with me, i feel so weird, right after reading THE GIFT by cecelia ahern, not too bad.

p.s. IDIOTIC WILLIAM, I've got the TRIUMPH CARD.

whatever everybody has to say about chemistry.

p.s.s ELIZA, what was the joke?

p.s.s.s. I know secrets!

she has something to say.

2008-12-17T18:37:00.000-08:00

seriously, i dun mind being insulted, compared to my sister or anything.
after all, I've been living with this for so many years.

aiyoyo, Ur sister so pretty.
-person who says this will turn to look at me
aiya, you not bad also la.

all these comments, so typical all the time. i got immuned.

excuse me, i do not care if I'm pretty or not. i do not care if I'm tall or not. i do not.
but as my mother you should not do this. I'm your daughter too! I know I'm not pretty enough to be your daughter. i know.
but you do not have to insult me.
- you think you very pretty ah?
it do affect me. why did you have to ask such a question? are you fulfilling your duty as a mother to insult your own daughter. After all, is looks so important to you? why?

all these years, i can still clearly remember what happened.
what happened at the party.
mom to friend : hello, this is my daughter[younger sis]
friend: oh ya, pretty like you, sure can tell.
mom to friend:this is also my daughter[ me]
friend: you sure this is your daughter ? don't look like you leh. [ i'm sure you know what she meant]
mom begins laughing.

seriously, i got so used to all these, very used to. i know i'm not pretty enough to be your daughter. i know... but all these passer-by remarks, you can stilll laugh at them and joke about it.
have you ever thought about defending me? no. because its a praise to you and your daughter.

i know that i'm ugly.[ talk about self- confidence]

your son is a frikkin ah beng and you still defend him. I worked so hard, behaved myself, but i never got praised, but you will make use of this to show-off...my daugther did well in her exams, she's a vice-head, but behind, you nvr praise me to me... you scold me day and night for not being a fantastic sister to your precious son and daughter.

and i know i'm not a fantastic grand daughter.
stop insulting me. stop making yourself sound likee i've been bullying you. you tell the whole world how bad a grand daughter i've been. but do you know all these insults you've been throwing me? you tell the whole world I talk on the phone with my 'boyfriend' you tell everyone i go out all day long with my ' boyfriend' but what are these? all crap. i dun even talk on the phone. not unless it's cristal. and i go out with so many people. why must you always make me sound so cheap. I've been living with this ok. you tell my father, you tell my aunties, you tell the whole world. you make my father scold me... I know you are going to ask him to throw me out. so, pls do... i cant stay a second longer...

free me from this misery.

when i went to OBS this march, i packed my bags, and you asked, why she pack bags? running away from home? run away with man is it?

you know what? although it was not said in chinese nor english, i understood...

continue to put me down. work harder women.[ my mother and paternal granmother]
i'll stay strong.

bored .

2008-12-14T23:01:00.001-08:00

YEAH, its like 2 more days before i can finally meet the SMART SALLEHS again. to know more abt everybody, read haziqah's blog! Reading haziqah'a blog make me feel like crying, because i really really miss them. I don't expect everyone or anyone to really read the previous post because it's just for my memory sake, i dont want to forget this trip ever and while it's still in my mind, i shall have it written...
BTW:
-eliza read the whole post. HAHAHAH.
-and yes, its a really long post.
-- syarifah aqilah, i did update MORE.
- and yes haziqah, twin brother, cos i refuse to acknowledge him as elder when he is 3 days younger and he refuse to acknowledge me as elder as i'm immature... get it?
- AND YES GAURI's a BOAR! a wild boar... HAHAHA. =p

i miss OBS!
HAZIQAH, i swear i'll never forget you. NEVER. i'll never forget anyone...

OBS Sabah

2008-12-13T06:55:00.000-08:00

I have a sudden urge to talk about my days in Sabah.

day1.
tiring trip there. i just cant concentrate or be quiet, i mean that's me right?
I was not very social, just stuck around with haziqah, Kim and Ziying all day.
Tried reading in the bus to senai airport, half successful... disturbed by poker card people. then started being noisy with haziqah.
then reached the ''oh-so beautiful- airport''
had the''oh-so-tasty marry brown''
socializing began until Mr. Daniel Tay made me talk to the MGS girls, cos he thought i didn't like them when we had to check in together,but in order to prove him wrong, i went up to say hi! which was kinda stupid, because i think they thought i was stupid. & bt. Merah's t'cher, ms. Eng said hi as she thought i was very noisy i suppose... and introduced me to her student, zhixiong a.k.a bear as i got to know him better during the 12 days. [marcus look alike]
air-plane ride, wow, hot steward i swear. me and haziqah were crazy! hahaha, no offence but he is HOT. [to me at least]
reached sabah late at night. had dinner, sorted groups,
then i interacted by saying hi to people, they asked for my name, so a guy went like HI CHERYL! and i went , ''ok, hi to whoever he is.'' which became a big thing because i did not noe vijay's name then... then get ready to sleep. cant sleep lah! it was so dark! then they went like,opening eyes is like closing eyes, wad the hell. so, it was a sleepless night for me as i was very scared of the dark.

day2.
woke up for PT. GRR!. but it was a jog by the beach, so i was ok with it... then after that we had a group change. haziqah changed with one of the MGS girl in my group as the MGS girls wanted to be together. so yah... my group consist of, Haziqah, Elan,Aaron.chun keong, marcus, sherman,vijay,syazleena, Eliza,Wah Long and ME.
with my fantastic instructors, Rosli and cath. we had team bonding games which was quite fun i wld say... OH MY BALL! HAHA. one of our grp jokes. learned to pitch tent, make fire pit and collect fire wood.
then we went for a trek up a nearby hill.already killing me... my group was kind of blur... then came back and prepared for our jungle expedition... OMYOMY. group 3 will be with group 4. Kinabalu and Mat Salleh.
Group 1 and 2 seperated... like aiyoyo... kim was seperated from us... another almost sleepless night as my mind wandered arnd wildly...

day3-5
yah this is it man... the jungle expedition. one of the toughest yet.dun think of it as the ubin one. cos after this, that will just be a walk in the park... Big Backpack checked, tongkat checked, screams[for leeches] checked.i wonder what else i need... then we set out in a van... i nvr want to get down... was the sweeper for the day. YEAH.walked behind. i didn't wanna feel the pressure of the front. then we walk and walk.... and i enjoyed myself... cos i was talking singing and entertaining myself. making weird remarks to myself... when i fall, i just stood back up and said ''i'm okay, not dead yet.'' had packed lunch by river. refilled jerry cans. put in aquatabs, the water tastes like swimming pool water... PUI. that was roughly how our milo tasted too...collecting water was so damn frikkin difficult, fell...with jerry cans in my hand. thanks sherman for your help...slept squashed in the tent that night. 2nd day, we had a few sick ppl,became navigator that day. sucks sia urgh! was blur lah! and my map was badly torn.... was terribly worried about leech bites...GAH! then reach campsite,wat a Fking campsite, pissed me off badly... termites nest, ant's nest... spiders. wadeva.. LEECHES. allowed to bath in river. WEE! when we were bathing, upstream, our dear boys were washing pots and pans, so where do the detergent water go??! idiots right!? haha. bathed and went back up to prepare dinner... started raining, didn't sleep, so gossiped... with marcus, aaron[he listened to the mjr gossips]
haziqah and eliza. haha.[andrina ah andrina ,eat tofu ah...] then fell asleep. its called sentry duty. get it? bacame leader the next morning, as we embark on a short trip to the end of our journey! i'm so glad. then we finally reach the end... it was like HEAVEN. then we walked on as grp3 got the van... then we took photo with ziying, talked to her then our group walked. i was fine with the walking lah... but it was hot and sunny. then halfway, we got the van!

day5 extended to 6.
finally reached our village home. tere were lots of children...so adorable! and animals, which puts of the other girls in my grp... syaz was okay with the cat... haha. nvm, then i went to take a bath. the boys are dumb! a small spider and they make it sound so horrible... haha.as the leader of the day, i helped out much, i prepared lunch, then helped out with dinner. i swear the boys are great cooks man! especially VIJAY!.. my god, i miss his chicken wings. and i had lots of fun entertaining the children. now i miss them... i learn to converse with them in malay... then we had to prepare for cultural night. yup, it was like a night-walk to the other village house... OH GOD. was quite afraid...met with ziying! yep, their hse was okay lah, not like ours, ours was more homely... then we interact with the other grp mates, then another grp of students came to interact with us, cultural exchange ya know... so they performed and we played, friendship dance... then there was a finale? god, yuck to the worms man. or rather grubs... grace[a mgs girl ate one] aaron. vijay and elan ate it too...yuck much? apparently so... then a weird guy whacked me in my arm in a funny motion and asked me to eat the worm. i asked him' why the hell you hitting me?' then he went 'cos you not from my grp mah' that guy was, apparently, BENEDICT.night over, back village home, slept peacefully.
woke up, prepared breakfast for them... cooked like 15- 16 packets of maggi mee... yup. maggi mee and me...
returned back to obsabah for mountain expedition briefing and preparation... played giants ladder. i'm sorry but i was really mad, i was laughing untill vijay almost killd me... lost 12 bucks to sherman!. i remembered we had a briefing, thats all i guess. we had review sessions where ppl said that, no cheryl no life in grp.. woo! i'm supposed to be proud right?! i think we shared our dirty jokes this day...

day 7
went to halleluyah retreat centre for the day, as we took a rather long ride there, went shoppingon the way there for gifts, bought shirts went arnd playing, Keith and sherman [dunman high boys]and i bought keychains which cost 4 ringgitt and somebody else bought it for 3... GRR! hahaha, wadeva lah...the place was nice, spent time in swing, took photos.. played like crazy girls... bullied aaron as benedict and i went arnd catching moths to scare aaron. the boys all think i'm dirty cos i told them some dirty joke i heard from campteen and hongwei... then they were like, you lok so innocent, inside is like DIRTY. aiyoyo.SHERMAN LAH! he started it. went toprepare dinner, in charge of the onions. yep. haha. didn't really cry... the rest did... HAHAHA. after that we sat round sharing jokes. just jokes.... slept very comfortably...

day8
yeah, finally the day we embaark on our journey to the top. haha. woke up, went to find the guys took our food. and as our grp, MAT SALLEH was in charge of b'fast, had to wake up earlier... sobs.while in the kitchen i found out benedict was 3 days younger than me. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.[but, saggitarians are COOL] i personally cooked 30 packets of maggi. which is mad cos i hate maggi now.. after all the maggi we have had for the jungle trek and homestay. BHLEX!
after b'fast, sat on a bus to bring us to our starting point. had a deja'vu in the bus with ziying...
climb up was bad, my foot seemed to lost its life.. was quite clumsy my way up. finally after a tideous climb, 6 km upwards... we reached laban rata guest house for a rest and buffet dinner. WEEH! haha. had a tiff with the mat salleh boys...cos they were laughing at me... then i just said''i'm not talking to mat salleh anymore, except haziqah'' out of a little anger. then i turned away, benedict started to talk to me, he said that i was just stubborn i definitely will start talking to them after awhile, so they bet i will speak to them before tml b'fast. the n i just refuse to give in to their bets, so we just kept joking arnd and then andy [andy is our singapore instructor that followed us to obsabah]wanted me to play games with mat salleh and the whole team was disturbing me, probing me to talk to them... i went to sit with the instructors... then rosli! that rosli had to disturb me... told johnny also.. untill i have no peace... and so they begin. =.=FINALLY, after being teased and probed i finally talked to them, my first words were, WAH LONG. i cant rmb why i called him... continued after dinner to our hut for rest... slept at 7.30 pm

day 9
woke up at 1.30 am. woo hoo! cool right? drank a cup of cereal.. then soon around 2.30 we got ready to scale up to the SUMMIT! yeahhe... tiring sia, and very dark, every step needs to be taken with care. when we were holding on to the rope, i felt very scared, very very very... it was like walking up the wall... and you see nothing but the rocks at your feel and the wet rope we had to hold on to... when we finally reach our entrance for our last part of our journey,[i went to the toilet, i asked haziqah to help me hold water bottle and she accidentally passed it to someone else to hold it for me thinking he was sherman] i thought things will be way easier, but no! it was tougher... on my way up, the tought of giving up came to my mind... i was struggling with haziqah...i was helped up by the guides. they gave us nicknames . Haziqah's was Maziqah and mine's Asparagus.weird much. then after being helped up halfway. i told myself i cannot miss this sunrise... that's why i woke up early... so i slowly paced myself all the way in front, leaving the rest behind and tried to catch up.. i was alone for a little while and i was scared... sallehan went down as he had AMS, so i thought there might be ppl in front.. so i continued my lone scale...until finally, i heard andy's voice.. then i realised benedict, ziying and andy were there in front of me, they were waiting for me..., they know i was there cos of my red jacket. ziying was not feeling well so benedict and andy were there to help her. i joined them to climb up.finally, with help from benedict... ziying and i managed our way up! WEE! haha. i caught the most beautiful sunrise ever in my life. i was cold but i didnt care... HAHAHA.it was damn cool man, glad to say, maziqah made it! finally, we had to go back down. went down with chun kheong, aaron and benedict. actually there were more people... like emirah, fitri and etc. it was very scary going down. very steep... and i was so scared i will fall [ like elan's dream- tell u ltr] reached the layang layang hut, met with sallehan, asked if he wanted to go down with us, but it was better if he followed emirah and fitri... so, we went off first... another km or so downwards... oh crap... then we met with an english man, who was a singapore PR. we talked to him and soon beacme friends. halfway, mr chun kheong, our so called superman sped up and left us behind... so we finally reached our hut. as we did not have the key, we decided to just sit arnd and wait, johnny was there cos he was not feeling well. so, we sat around to play, and get disturbed.=.= when they finally arrived, we were all told to hurry pack up and leave to laban ratan guesthouse for b'fast. A lot of them not feeling well... like sherman, haziqah, eliza... they were scary alright... i thought coming down wld be easier... then we had b'fast.... haziqah was feeling better... but sherman wasn't gtting better, so andy got me to take porridge for sherman. which he didn't eat alot... then i stood behind to take care of sherman, he shared haziqah;s water bottle, so i took it or them... haziqah in front of me, sherman behind... and when rosli's around, i nvr get peace... his eyebrow, and his qns... tsk tsk tsk =.= sherman was like an ulti merlion... hahaha. and elan the loser was so so so so slow. GRR! [i always quarrel with him - not serious quarrels...] and he was whining so badly like a girl, as we cldnt stand it anymore, we deided to go first, so, sherman, haziqah and i decided to go first with permission from rosli as sherman wanted to descend faster. yep, so we chiong to the front, they took a long time... then for the rest of the journey, we stayed in front, took rest at huts and climbed the dunno how many million steps to finally get down and reach the bus... from there, we changed bus. in this bus, i had to take my late lunch, as it was rather shaky, i cldnt find the appetie to eat, and i was cold, so i fell asleep for awhile. then haziqah suddenly went, cheryl, its coming out. then i got shocked and i stood up, ''i need plastic bag!'' then, as i was getting plastic bags for her, grace needed one too... and so did eliza and syazleena... OH GOD... then i had to stay awake to take care of them as i attended to them, i was half dozing off, tired and hungry and cold... finally, we reached OBSABAH after a long long long time... went to have dinner, got hot drink for my three patients and went to get food for them. went to take a bath and got ready to sleep, i guess... slept soundly this time...

day 10

wake up and got ready for the sailing expedition. sailing sailing here we go...

didn't even get to sail as we were towed there.... crap right? it was due to bad weather... so we got to island, pitched tent, HAHAHAHA. i had a very funny experience pitching tent, hearing al these words from sherman's mouth... [my*toot* is thicker than that]as he comments abt the pegs,[what shit peg is this?!] and making haziqah look like a total MJ... set up kitchen and got back on boat for a short row practice... the ores were frrikkinn heavy...and, after that, mr rosli created an abandon boat drill... hahaha, all of us had to jump into the water... it was LAME. hahaha, played catching in the water...then got ready to cook dinner... [i think i had deja'vu typing this...] as i was practically useful for only picking firewood, and the very useful boys cooked. i went all out to collect firewood, collecting more than 10 rounds... after that ,i just loitered around the beach to pick shells with aaron and benedict. Then went back to help out with dinner[if anything cld be helped]

then we sat down in the dark for our sumptuous dinner... chicken was great...vege was not too bad... eggs were good too...then since we had so much leftover of firewood, we had a mini bonfoire session with the grp3 ppl... wee! so fun, we sang songs, syang kinabalu, sallehan sang a solo, we did the friendship dance[ i know they sabo me!=.=],did the hokey pokey, chachikucha, making melodies... and did doraemon team song!... oh, and haziqah did her soulja boy solo, MJ style... HAHAHA.[i know they tried to sabo me. but i was lucky, i didn't realise it only untill i think back about it...] nurul haziqah, Can i have this dance eh? so after a debrief session, which was rather sad... i headed out to the beach fro sentry duty. i decided not to sleep as i saw cockroaches around... and when i went back, everyone woke to the disgust of multiple and infinite sand fly bites... like syaz,her hands, bear, his whole FACE. and he was so angry, he cursed and swear...so we headed back to the beach instead... after awhile, aaron fell asleep, haziqah and ziying and eliza had their sec 4 talk at a corner, vj was talking to them as well... and syaz fell asleep too... leaving only benedict and me awake. then the tide was coming in, so we had to evacuate to another dry spot... we had to wake everyone to move... so, once we moved, the sec 4 girls stopped talking and slept like... aaron slept like one big pig! then i cldn't really fall asleep... but the view was nice, the moon looked so beautiful, the sky was dotted with stars and on the other side of the island, they had fireworks, cool right?! so i sat there, feeling so cold, a blue blanket wrapped around me as i finally fell asleep for 2 hours at 3 or 4 after watching the moon set...

day 11.

woke up arnd 5 plus... and caught the a beautiful sunrise... from our view, we cld see mt. K too... it was beautiful... but not as beautiful as the mt.k one... went back to help prepare b'fast... maggi again... crapp lah, then made one with onions specially for rosli... when i went to find him, he was burning bread.- not toasting, burning... HAHAHA. packed up, and we were ready to sail back. we had to row majority of the way back.... which was tiring... i was dying in my seat.. i wanted water but cldn't get any... was semi-concious at my seat. cldnt open my eyes.. wanted water badly but nobody gave me... sad right?

finally, after rowing halfway, we had to be towed back...HAHA.my favorite... just sit there doing nth... finally when we reached we did a thorough clean up. wohoo... saw kim and wished her happy birthday. the clean up was fun. then we had lunch. and we slacked around the afteroon, cant rmb what we did, it was the last night so i didn't really want to sleep. tried staying awake, sat outside with the few people who were at the beach and finally, went back in to slp... i had to embrace my fear of the dark to sleep. so i did, and slept...

day 12.

woke up early for final pt... WEE! so fun. and had solo reflection... which is really good... in 6 month time, i'll be getting my reflection back... hahaha. cant wait. then we had a final activity, rafting... then we bathed, packed up and had a so-called farewell party, and a early dinner... soon, we had to go... rosli sent us to the airport...rosli id the penguin dance...rechel and rosli teased me...=.= but ididnt say anything as i know we're abt to say gdbye to them which was sad... i admit that i did tear a little, becos i felt so sad i had to leave them ... i really missed them alot. saying goodbye is something i hate alot... alot... in the plane sat with my crap family... algae,bacteria,rubbish,trash,dirt, and i cant rmb...was it dust? nvm... who wld have thought. =.= assholes. then, we reached senai aiport...then we took a bus ride to the checkpoints. it was already late. very late. when we finally reached the obsecc, i stayed there for the night. 8 of us stayed. haziqah, ziying, kim and me. guowei,jeremy , benedict and aaron. mr tay treated us to macdonalds... ;) then at 4am, after eating, i went back to slp.

day 13.

woke up at 7. was the earliest... slacked arnd for half an hour, brushed my teeth wash my face, then jeremy woke up, guo wei woke up and so i sat outside talking to them, tried smsing gauri, but as a pig, i supposed she was still sleeping. then i did not join benedict and aaron for b'fast and headed back home with kim.. that was abt it. ;)

whew, long type!

just a few photos.

2008-12-11T07:01:00.000-08:00

coming home!

i was talking to Mikey jackson.

thats me again! somebody's hat...

my new friend. in blue-benedict. in red- Aaron.

the red jacket. thats me ;)
I know it's BEAUTIFUL! i reached the TOP!

CULTURAL NIGHT! dancing a BIRD dance. i love the song.

crazy girls playing like crazy girls. L.O.V.E

sMArT salleh!
My hot and cool instructor.

These are photos of me from Aaron the underwear model's cam.
just bear with these few... ;)

because its aaron's camera, you see aaron arnd.

and benedict... my TWIn brother.

my photo orders jumbled.... hehehe.

back

2008-12-09T17:52:00.000-08:00

Hello!
I'm back! yeah~
just to inform you all how it's been going : i'm FINE!
but i miss GAURI very very very very very very very very very very very much!
i shall update again once i get the photos, which will be a long time.

-there's so much to tell gauri!

2008-11-10T06:26:00.001-08:00

to you, i might not be a fantastic grand- daughter, but to others, i am.

because you're not a fantastic grandmother either.

BITCH!

'I'm so sorry.'

i feel terrible.

sometimes, i just do not understand how things go on in this world.

all the unreasonable people you face.

all the misunderstandings.

all the hatred.

all the unhappiness.

all the fighting.

ALL THE DAMNED PEOPLE YOU FACE.

all the discrimination.

all the things you dun like.

why?

i dunno.

i'm too simple minded for this.

&ireallymissedyou.

this song really speaks my heart.

ILY!

2008-11-07T05:50:00.000-08:00

JOAN!

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Yeah! i LOVE YOU!

p.s.dun jealous la hazel. more than you.

2008-11-05T05:02:00.000-08:00

to AQILAH!
Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. List 8 people out at the end of this post and tag them. Notify them at their chatboxes that he/ she has been tagged.

1. What have people done that will make you hate him/her the most?
to hate me.

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
eat.joke. laugh. play a fool

3. What kind of news do you read?
the comic strips!

4. What is your ultimate wish?
good O level reults.

5. Is there someone in your heart now?
all the time...

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
well, i can try, but its not gonna work eventually..

7. Are you afraid of pain?
both physically and emotionally? yeah.

8. What do you feel like doing now?
going to pee?

9. If there's someone you love, would you confess to him/ her?
no.

10. List 3 good points of the person that tagged you.
AQILAH!great dancer, great friend, pretty

11. What are 5 things you are most passionate about at this moment?
food, friends, porsche, that problem,prefects

12. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
kinder bueno!
13. How tall am are you?
154cm TALL!

14. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
the sweeter, more feminine girly one? LIKE TOTALL OPPOSITE oF NOW!except for character?

or maybe that need to be changed too.

well, maybe more responsible?

15. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

oh, driving around streets in y beautiful porsche convertible.

16. What is the one thing that you love about yourself the most?
the crazy me. wild ,loud and bold.

17. (my own question) Have you regretted anything?
yeah, lots, like that problem.

18. If you're to return back to the past, what would you like to do?
to be different.

19. Tagged:
-Gauri[even if they did it]
-aqilah[even if they did it]
-Lionel
-Sha
-Jun Lin(i can't think of others)
-huda

-hazel ang!

hello bahabah

2008-10-23T03:32:00.001-07:00

YO!
today today,
i went to mee toh.
MET A BOY.
a new boy.
he must love me!
haha
he gave me lollipop and he asked for my msn!
HAHA.
miss tan thinks that next year if he do come to MJR, i will get chased around by him, and so, there will be wei liang, zee yee and tjis boy called wei ming.
DIE ARH!
HAHA.
then went to watch house bunny with miss tan. eew, quite dirty lah, but funny!
HAHA! then went back to singpost for a meeting.
aiya. i tried calling sha, but nvr pick up, so i went home...
so now, i'll be in charge of a bit of the deco. HEehEe.
hahahaha.
i am still OBSESSED WITH CRUSH.
i liked it ever since i heard it.
i guessed it was the lyrics and the magic of archuleta's voice.
heehee. all the hots!
cant wait for sunday!
ttfn.

under stress

2008-09-19T08:39:00.000-07:00

I think i might be too stressed or something....
i lost weight.
and my hair's all falling.
and i am having flu.

2 genting photos...

2008-09-16T05:12:00.000-07:00

its just another post

2008-09-13T08:06:00.000-07:00

well, i found time to update again...

well this week, was quite an eventful week, considering the nearing EOY...
and...
i went to Maha Bodhi School on Thursday and made a presentation...
WOOH!
I'm lovin' it...
the presentation went out well! students were super responsive and attentive!
went in super duper hunky Mr lai's car and sat with SARAYUTT!
now, how cool can that be? skipped three period of lessons and gave my mind a 1andahalf hours break too...
Hmmm....

well, on Friday, something happened and Mr.head prefect might not be feeling so good, so i wish he has cheered up! after he had talked to gauri and i have talked to him...
well, i kinda find myself lucky i'm not in his shoes and kind of guilty i didn't want to offer much help at the beginning when he asked me if i would do the typing for him at home...
and i rejected, and asked him to do it himself...
HOW GUILTY CAN YOU BE ,CHERYL WONG!

YES, too guilty over too many things!
shit... why did you even end up like that?
make yourself feel bad.

well, waited for dunno how many hours on friday afternoon for CHERYL TANG, HUANG WENYI AND VICTOR KWAN just to go back to primary school... well, at least i got a ride there... spend time i primary school . cool bananas. people sid i'm TALL!!!! [ FEELING VERY ELATED]

AND YES! ENCI accompanied me and he talked to me... cause he was waiting for SANDI LIM BEIZHENG!
HEHEHEHE~ caught! he was very funny, preten pretend read physics but actual fact is he was talking to me all the while...
HAHHAHAA!
we shared about America's NEXT TOP MODEL!
his favourite subject...
HAHAHAHA!
anyway, Mr ong en Ci, i saw the photo! ultra disgusting!
EEEW~

and sorry JOAN, i only managed to tell Darren not gauri
and sorry gauri, i ran away without saying goodbye to you...
and thank you William and Darren, who helped me keep the flags as i was the last girl guide there.

**don't like to talk about silly htings here. stupid grandma! thats silly and plain rude! I"M YOUR GRANDAUGTHER! THATS NOT HOW YOU TREAT A GRANDAUGHTER! MAKE HER LOOK CHEAP!

P.S. When a flour baby dies, bake cake with it...
and I'm very sad... Cheryl is now very lonely.
poor Darren and Joan... why did you two die!?!!
and JOAN soon[as in the human] please continue to feed Cheryl[the blackgoldfish]

asleastyoucouldhavetoldmesomething...
itwasyourfaultfornotevensayingalasthing.
atleastitriedyoudontknowme,
howifeel,everything!shutup and
getlostfrommylifenow.

2008-09-09T06:45:00.000-07:00

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.

Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men

You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

it's a mixed kind of feeling.

2008-09-09T03:16:00.000-07:00

you might just want to skip this post if you hate long winded thoughts

I do not really know what's wrong with me.

sometimes I'm happy.

sometimes I'm sad

sometimes i get frustrated.

sometimes I'm calm

and these emotions all change very quickly. I have no idea why. Maybe because Mid-year is approaching? well, i know it's approaching... But i had to take this chance to let go of my bottled-up thoughts. There are so many things that I've kept inside me for so-long... and i mean very long... maybe more than a year ? well it may sound short but everyday many things happen and things changes so it kind of affects my mood as well... It's not easy to bring personal thoughts out of the mouth.(I'm sure you understand) and i cannot make what i want to say on a blog that everyone will see and read but i am trying to put things down not so directly and long winded-ly . After Teacher's day, i thought that things will be calmer but i did not expect that handling new prefects can be so difficult and tiring as-well. The year-end is coming again and i feel very sad, i do not want this year to end so quickly... why does time fly so fast?

I regretted many things and how i wished time would turn back for me to change things... Whtas done cannot be undone. i understand... well, i seriously do not wish to post about school things anymore...

I also suffer from home depression... i suffer stress from school and family and there is not a time i can find peace for myself... the only escape seems to be when i'm left alone...and left to do alot of thinking... I just hope that maybe in this world, there's someone who can understand me well. I CAN'T TAKE THIS STRESS ANYMORE!

By keeping myself occupied and busy, i seem to not thinnk too much and let my mind wander off too much.

ANYWAY, i would like to thank some of my friends who have kept me alive and tolerated with me.
GAURI- who has beeen the 'light' of my life,neever fail to cheer me up and give me a good laugh.
LIONEL- who always listen to all my Unhappiness and lets me speak my mind very easily.
AQILAH- who comforts me when i feel sad
HARMONY- someone who seems to listen and let me bully
JOAN- the sucker who talks to me and crap with me
WILLIAM - his hair makes me laugh
SHA- nvr fail to make me smile in class
MISS NORAINI- my best buddy who treats me really nice!
and
CLARA- the girl whom i can talk to during maths...

WELL, i have to thank many more people as well... for tolerating my unforseen tempers and emotional breakdowns.
P.s. GAURI, one day i'll tell you EVERYTHING!

to update

2008-08-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

there is this BIG HUGE PROBLEM.

gauri wants me to update my blog.

so i did

here i am.

but i dunno what to update about, so many things have been happening.

ok, lets talk about GAURI,

the almost becoming bird-like creature, which also happens to be a pig.

yup thats all.

HER BABY DIE!

OH NO!

HAHA, and recently she's becoming weird. ECCENTRIC

SUCKA!

AND, when will embarrasing things ever end for cheryl?!

ONE AFTER ANOTHER AND MORE COMING!

go and die la!

mdm cheah,ne t term and then tchers day.

BLOODY HELL!

HAHA~ OK. just for gauri.

2008-07-22T06:52:00.001-07:00

Sad.
UGH!

oh...

2008-07-15T07:02:00.000-07:00

oh yeah, haha. yupps i'm updating the blog.
HAHA! CRAP!
STTOP CALLING moi PIG!

the following people are the pigs:
-TEY ZEE YEE
-WANG WEI LIANG
&- GAURI VARSHA RAI!

YUPSS!

i had lots of fun celebrating birthdays.

and lalala~ durian durian so YUMMY!

yes, STUPID GAURI!- the littlest pesky little pest.
LAME LA!
NONSENSE!

L-O-S-E-R
L-A-M-E-R

p.s.to GAURI. she has a fever~
she's hot.
& she cant be stop.[ our little joke]

i am very ANGRY ABOUT MANY THINGS!
i want to kill people!
i want to MURDER PEOPLE!
i want to chop people into million pieces and throw them all over kallang river.
WHATS THEIR GOD DAMN PROBLEM!!!!!
F*** you! D**** u!

2008-05-23T05:08:00.000-07:00

GAURI VARSHA RAI's ALIVE~

WooHoo~ =D

HMMM!

IT's VERY PEACEFUL HERE~

HEHE.

come squeeze me into mash potato la!

cheryl

2008-05-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

LIFE's PEACEFUL MAN!
DRASTIC CHANGES.
GOOD AND BAD!

YEEKS

2008-05-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

yups, wadeva the result.
ya, so...
i'm the vice-head.
pressure, stress, EVERYTHING!
gotta change myself she says,
gotta start behaving like a mature lady...
stop being childish, playful and absent-minded.

i promised to make sure i change for the better,
and as i said, i must definitely take on this role proudly yet humbly.
i will accept my challenge.

lots-of-love,
cheryl

2008-05-17T07:50:00.000-07:00

You Are More Yang

Masculine

Creative

Angry

Spring

Summer

Morning

Sun

Space

Active

Wood

Chocolate

Are You More Yin or Yang?

Your Learning Style: Flexible and Adaptable

You are a great hands on learner, and you have an excellent memory.

You Should Study:

Acting

Architecture

Creative Writing

Design

Foreign Languages and Literature

Journalism

Literature

Music

Photography

What Should You Study?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.

You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Feminine Are You?

Your Extroversion Profile:

Assertiveness: Very High

Cheerfulness: High

Excitement Seeking: High

Activity Level: Medium

Friendliness: Low

Sociability: Low

How Extroverted Are You?

saturday.

2008-05-17T05:33:00.000-07:00

Today we had our conference at TKGS!
so fun
i met en han :D
yeah, and i was actually in the same group as toh wee's sister.
HAHA
and esther seah's brother!
haha.
it wasa very meaningful.
i learned alot.
and i love NORMA SIT!
GO HILLARY!
WEE!
It was the second time i heard mr martin tan and it's ereaally cool, and it's like, norma was so for HILLARY
and MARTIN comes in, OBAMA!
HAHA!
games were fun , fresh and interesting.
so overall, its rather cool, but we feel that our teachers could have been there too.
haha
ended with eating with GAURi at macdonald.
then went home, then taklk to my new friend, TOFU BOY!

Cherylization

2008-05-16T04:07:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIONEL TEH!

HAHA, today got elections.

made a bet with GAURI the hindi girl,

haha. if she becomes the head or vice head, i get $1 and she has to treat yi heng to KFC!

hooohooohooo, yup definitely i get mine.

and today, we had vesak celebration, it is like so...

WEM...

HAHA.

ya, i was best in ART!

i get my prize!

just a cheapskate cert.

zzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

and that Zhen hong is so funny.

haha.

and me and gauri were CRAPPING LIKE HELL O' A NONSENSE YEAH!

yupps. and i obviously quarreled with that bloody hell of a irritating NIGEL KOH CHIA CHEN!

HE SUCK!

and then the start of a civilization and something something -ing starts too.

ya... it all started with.....

and there are,

zhen ningning,

which means: homosexual;transexual; gaying; acting like a woman.

elization

eating shit; or acting like a fool and blur and looking like one too.

Cherylization

too many meanings i cant speak of here.

Leonardization

growing tall and not stopping.

Jeremying

showing weird KOOKOO faces.

then today, we went to marina, not very fruitful a GG trip.

butyes!

went to watch MADE OF HONOUR!

woohoo. so cool.

so romantic.yep.

but when i see kissing scenes...

i go EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

and, when i see those scottish guys in skirt, i go ZHEN NING NING!

and i will start laughing like hell.

HAHAHA

and then i behave like a crazy wman after the show still laughing at funny pick-up lines.

haha.

NOT MY FAULT!

ELIZA Taught me those weird words.

HAHA.

i still miss my best friend.

loves today,

CHERYL~

yes, I'm posting for YOU!!!!!

2008-05-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

dun get any stupid wrong ideas, i am talking about GAURI.
that overly crazy WOMAN!
who forces me to update my blogs.
OR ELSE...
she'll do bad things to me...
maybe she'll blurt things out
or,
show me too much 'love and affection'.
which is why i actually bother to update my blog.

HA HA.

YES! i pass all my subjects!
including a-e math and PHYSICS!
woo hoo!
LUV MYSELF

yeps, speech is over, for two days, when i was standing up there, i tell you freaking mama ass.
my stomach ache like siao !
hey, anyway just caught a show, it s called BROADWAY BENG!
its the nicest comedy ever, although crude...
ha ha, my cousin said she supposed i laughed the loudest in the whole theater,
i dun care cuz i enjoyed myself.
;D

and wish me total luck for tomorrow, cus its the elections.
elections!
...
just no whatsoever feelings on it!

yeps. and i'm currently breaking free from stress.

AND I MISS MY BEST FRIEND TangYaYun SO MUCH NOW!
BRING HER BACK TO ME!

love and hatreds,
CHERYL!

.GAURI.[for her]

2008-05-09T03:03:00.000-07:00

HAHA!

forced to write this entry.

BY MY GREATEST FRIEND

shall not tease her.

HEHEHEHEHEEHHE.

my $1. HAHAHA!

finally.

i seriously dunno wat to write.

ya, exams are here, wadeva man.

gotta PASS. cannot be a failure right?

i feel so. STRESSED?!

confused?

i dunno.

've been studying. except i dun have mood for studying SS.

i dunno why?

in the end paper turn out to be DAMN hell a SHITTY.

i dun care already.

haixs. so many things to say, talk about what?

i dunno.

HAHAs

anyway, its like...

i have to do some shitty publicity posters.

the posters are going to look shitty, cos of me.

and i dun want to be.

'^'

like hell no.

me and lionel's wish is to be normal prefects.

so... haixz

BUT. WHO CARES.

i have decided to now. just be CRAZY!

like always.

well, I AM.

knom jea sop-bai.

BYE!

here GAURI!

and ya.

my $1.

tday is a day

2008-04-11T07:10:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

tday wasnt too bad...

i had an interview with Mrs Tay,

for the head prefect thingy....

not too bad,

i wld say...

i ate lunch with Gauri[as usual]

Lionel

Wei Xing

Dionna.

HAHAHA!

then i went to laminate over 80 pieces of a3 size paper for the cambodia packing thingy.

WALAO!

i cant believe that i have to actually go to cambodia with people like,

WANG WEI LIANG & TEY ZEE YEE!

i cant stand their DISGUSTING nonsense,

although WWL is funny.

I fought with him and aunty betty scolded us.

and then she go tell mrs poh.

OH SHIT!

then,i cant believe it.we smiled at each other.

then some lingering till gauri came.

quarrelled with TZY and WWL till bus stop

DAMN FUNNY!

GAURI AND THEM!

HAHAHAHAHAAH!

CRazy fRiEnDS!

HAHA~

GdBye!

TIll i'm BacK again!

today, my god-mum is giving birth to her son.

i pray to god for her well-being.

nth much today.

tml going to school again!

HAIX

2008-04-09T05:01:00.001-07:00

HELLO! i'm back. just lazy.
anyway, many things happened.
and i dunno when i'll break down.

ever since camp, i've rather determined.
I LOVE CAMP!
and i aspire to be an INSTRUCTOR someday.
I'm REALLY TIRED.
stressed out wadeva.
i'm really tired of life in school. i've been pushing myself so hard sometimes i just feel like really breaking down and tell my loved ones how tired i am already.
i try to conceal my feelings and true emotions, but they just show sometimes.this time round i didn't break downi tried so hard to stop myself from letting it out.
i really want to THANK GAURI! for being there for me all the time...
i love her!
she's my 'greatest friend'
HAHAHA!

i'm NOMINATED HEAD PREFECT!
GOSH! i'm not sure if i'm up to it, looking at that stress tagging it.
i'm worried.
but after thinking about what Doctor William said, i feel that i should just muster up courage and GO for it!
show them the GIRL POWER!i've got ATTITUDE MAN. i'm so STRESSED!
EVRYTHING'S SO MUCH!
but i've been going high with GUIDES hehe!
i love guides!
something to destress to.

just like my road run.
GOT TOP 10 ALSO!
gosh!!! first time in my life.
so HAPPY! thanks to GAURI!
haha. sec1-50
sec2-60-80+++
SEC THREE- 7!!!!!
WHEEX!

after a lot i realised that i have been winning myself and i am very pleased.
i faced many challenges i never knew i could.
and i am changing.
but i will not change my BUBBLY character, like many ppl always say.
GOOD BYE!
and till i come back again!

~courage is needed even if we fail.

LOL-DAY! =D

2008-03-05T03:39:00.001-08:00

LOL.
Tday, is FUN!
hahaha.
first i had...
PRESENTATION on cambodia.
WHEEX!
i'm telling you... there's so many adorable photos of me.
HAHAHA!
MS SALINA is intelligent.
=.=
SANG. but like so not prepared.
nvm. i enjoyed it.

then during MT my walking dictionary keep playing with me.
dun wanna give me info tday.
dun wanna lend me correction tape also.
WALAO!
mrs LAI JIONG JING![so many mrs lai arnd]
so fun playing with her tday.
dunno how to tease me.

my PARTNER, sha.
hahaha
so FUN!
i go scold her becos i dunno how to make a diamond.
then i like so WTHlike nonsense like tat.
then we went to eat, then walk walk after school.
then we guides here band there.
LOL.
its so LMAO.
then we go disturb aqilah.
LURB LURB LURB RIGHT LURB.[we noe wad it means.]

LOL

then got so HIGH during guides.
then go POP meeting, get even more high!
must be the terrible effects of kerosense.
HAHA.stupid KENN that shorty.
keep fighting with me. like ELIZA SAY LA!
LOL, then i keep making everyone like lose concentration.
hahah! my didi dexmond la.

nvm.

during guides we sing again!
hahaha.
so fun singing.
i love singing.
singing is my life.
fine, so LOL tday.
then everyone tease me mrs...
stupid ELIZA!
i will take my revenge, mrs LAi aka mrs thio.

i love aqilah.
aqilah love......
i love SAH my partner!
i love evreryone who went on stage to sing today.!
I'm HAPPY today!
ITS A LOL DAY!
so LOL! =D

I buried will.

2008-03-01T07:21:00.000-08:00

so i buried will.
so now,
if there's no will,
there's no way.

i am so angry.
i give up.
this is so infuriating!

maybe its me.
but i am too fed-up to think about who's fault it is.
i perceived it is yours.
or maybe IT is your fault.

never-mind.
for this,
i will forgive and forget.
and live happily-ever!
=D

problems problems...

2008-02-22T02:55:00.003-08:00

haix
cant upload more photos...
blogger got prob!
GRR!
nvm nvm...
HIGH these days!

BABY PHOTOS!

2008-02-22T02:55:00.001-08:00

RAndom Pics!

2008-02-22T02:37:00.000-08:00

random photos... haha.
-GAURI... [so sexy]
-my art work.
-some random stuff.

CHERYL!

2008-02-19T01:22:00.000-08:00

HAHAH!
found juicy secrets, kind-along ago la actually but ... it doesn't concern me...
SAD in school.
WON DEBATE!
damn delighted.
BEST SPEAKER!
not so happy though.
WAS... in fact.
but, something just dashed my mood.
i feel so indirectly 'put-down'
if u know what i mean.
but people say, if its mine, its mine...
if i am happy i should be, don't let others affect my mood. right?
YA...
BUT, i'm seriously glad it's all going to be over soon.
& i AM SERIOUSLY WAY TOO HAPPY , we won the first preliminary round.
IT kind-OF BOOST our MORALE, for the next DEBATE...
SO HAPPY!
yeah^^
OUR VALENTINE with the school PAID-OFF!
right? GAURI!
hahaha!
mdm ROzita, still had the cheek to call us 'losers'
in fact, we are WINNERS!
i'm very irritated by this paticular person which i'm not going state who, but she makes me feel so EEW now, the fact that she has really been a great friend la.
haix... nvm.

SATURDAY!16FEB!
went to caroline's party!
was FORCED by y dad to wear a little more formal...
so... i wore a dress.[OMG!]
then i met up with Jun Lin,Darren and Jeremy.
UNLUCKILY, we saw Toh Wee. IDIOT!
keep suan me in the Dress!
THEN nvm, walked and walked arnd MRT station to find way out , but it's so confusing, here,there,everywhere...
with 3 pathetic people!
CHANG WEI XING! u Pang Seh me ang left me with 3 pathetic people!.
how could you!
I suggested we walk to Caroline' house... BUT!
that DARREN LAI JIONG JING! wanted to take TAXI! [rich kids are like dat la, no choice]
but in the end, i got it my way!
we walked there.
reached there and played with WeiXing! SKIPPING ROPE...
WEi XING so dangerous...
hai yo yo...
then went in to th room to play with patrick's wii,,,
SO FUN! junlin Kena trashed by me...
DArren trashed me...
jeremy trashed junlin...
hahaha...
anyways it wasn't too bad.
can consider getting one, quite good for exercising.
and then Joan came!
she lah.. cannot contact us...
nvm. she still came.
then ran around disturbing ervina, cause she wore SEXY BLACK STOCKINGS.
hahaha, u dont wanna noe wad happen.
song bo!
then got buffet dinner.
YAY!
me and weixing went around and taste and enjoy ALL THE FOOD!
cheers to me and wei xing!
YAY!
then eat finish play zhong ji mi ma,
caroline's other friends came and play with us too, but they weren't sure how to.
sad la.
then every time tio the code, set by the person next to me.[caroline's friend] no need to go one round then is me already.
sad la.
especially the ''49'' incident.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
then all the stupid forfeits.
wad mus give rose, give water, take photo...
WTH!, then must dring combi drink...[SOYA SAUCE,water,green tea, cheesecake]
hahaha, lucky i professionally trained...
then after that went home, i thought joan left, sobbs BUT She didn't (=
hahaha...
she wanted to send me home by stopping her taxi near my home, re-route...
sad rite?
but in the end... weixing, darren, junlin left...
then i was supposed to take taxi with joan, si jun and marcus .
but after that, WE[leonard jia lin, kenn, si jun,marcus , joan and me] took bus 7 home!
YEAH!
but Jian Lin was so angry, with kenn for stoppin her from taking taxi... and dragging her into bus...
hahaha...
joan, si jun and Marcus then alighted with me at bugis because, joan's dad fetch them from there.
so i went HOME!
hahaha!
thats about it...

take care ppl!

stepped on my tail

2008-02-12T04:26:00.000-08:00

currently, i feel happy, normal.
don't want to waste strength getting fed up anymore.
just not going to care.

still not over some incidents that happened lately.

incident1:
i don't understand y she has to so sarcastically put me down when you are no better.
i seriously feel so upset over it, only Gauri understands.

incident2:
i betcha she will regret and herself up in tears,
dun wanna talk about her attitude, but, it seriously puts me off.
I just feel that i am such a failure.
and only Gauri understands.

incident3:
my chinese compo in the school's chinese compo book! hahahahah! PRO right?
ya, but then my class was so printed WRONGLY.
instead of 2c they put me 2d! i am so pissed off.
its like i HATE 2d and its like outting me down too la.
whats with putting me down and making me feel so lousy all the time? knock it off ppl! Noone understands.

& thats all for recent unhappy moments.

went to joan house and play on the 10th of feb.
with wenyi.
got treated to dinner, it was damn shiok lar!
hahahaha, thanks joan's dad and joan.
then this two siao gila crazy girl, joan & wenyi decided to go for a walk.
so ya, we went for a walk, but then i had a stomachache, must be too full after dinner i guess.
then they decided to go to Sijun's house. [OMG!]
then i reluctantly followed with a tummyache.
and they walked and walked but cant find it.
then we wanted to go back and we saw this really cool van with ALOT of CUTE AND ADORABLE STITCH PLUSHIES!
Oh so CUTE.
then, lynn called, so we decided we shldn't go to his hse and we went back as lynn came.
hahaha! my Saviour!
then played, gossiped, gamble and bused home.

thats about it.
CNY is like the same every single year so... nvm.

ya so~

2008-01-24T04:26:00.000-08:00

1E ppl~
read my blog ah...
haha!
I not scary onle lah
jus angry only...
BUY ME LOLLIPOPS!
OK???
remember hor!
MENDEL,RICHARD especialy u 2...

haiix its thursday~
so SIANXa little hate school...
and can cope with a mths.
but e maths...
haiix, not so sure la!
can anyoe tell mie how do i expresss my own feelings?
its like so difficult!
u are so currently listening to an angry woman talk!
so ya... going cambodia again...
BUT COMFIRM NOT FUN like last year!
cos got a lot of UGH ppl goin.
and miss wong sound like she putting me in charge of EVERYTHING.
packing, entertainment and report of what is recommended for the trip and what we should not do anymore for the trip..
like some improvement kind of thing la...
so...
CAN THOSE CAMBODIA'07 PPL PLS GIVE ME SOME SUGESTIONS?
well...
and these few days has beeen like WADEVa!
and i only wanna spend time in prefectorial board to make myself MORe happy!
and they dunno still complain. BIG FUCK! dun make me contribute to that FUCKING classs AGAIN!
cos I WILL NOT!

alrite there i go again. scolding the BIG FUCK class...

jus ....
haix

so CAMBODIA 'o7 ppl can you tell me wat u like about the trip and wat u not like and some improvements about it?
I LOVE U ALL!!![exclude zhen ting pls!]
hahha...
eliza forget that ''wonder'' guo wei's name...
hahaha! we must go out and communicate communicate liao larh!
hahah!
CAMBODIA 'o7 FOREVER!

goodtimes?

2008-01-17T01:59:00.000-08:00

hahaha~
tday went ot buy things for the class i HATE!
WHY!!
bcos of my 2c fren.
i jus want to say that tday i screamed at my form tcher.
saying how this bloody fucking jibai idiot class sux.
and how i hate my sitting position and he dosent even care less...
and! that idiot yek liang a FAT BAG OF CRUDE FOUL AND STINKY OIL
i jus hate him.
wats wif THAT IDIOT FUCKER[N***L] thinks its funny. putting his pants down and showing off his jersey pants.
ahh wadeva.

lets talk about happy times!
like umm CPA!
hahaha~
so amusing!
so FUNNY la
GAURI and LIONEL!
heehees
wad nonsense!
you will marry in ur life.
NO i'll bet my life on it i'll not!
YES you will...
NO i wont
YES you have to...
NO i dont have to...
20yrs later you will comfirm married!
NO I SWEAR I WONT!
[figure out who's saying wad]
so regarding this debate about getting married or not...
i wish everyone will do the poll~
prove SUMONE WRONG!

SUX SUX SUX

2008-01-14T04:09:00.000-08:00

DAMN my life...
why am i a girl?
WHY!!!
& life seriously SUCKS
i hate my class la!
sickening 3d...
irritating math teacher.
form teacher newbie...
idiotic ppl in class...
and that bloody fucking yek liang. is he wrong never say sry...
still can deny! bloody fat over obese kiasu fat attention seeker
i HATE my CLASS
& zhen ning and leonard is so going to DIE!!

FAmilY also so BAD!
a family of female bitches.
first my grandmoteher[father side]
then my mother
then my auntie[father side]
and my uncles wife[father side]
BITCH!
my grandmother hates me complain about me all the time and always talk bad about me to ALL MY RELATIVES!
she say i will not be able to find a spouse if i continue to be like that and WHO CARES!
i dun even plan to find one...
and my mother kips irritating me all the time. forcing me to do things i dun like .
the other day i said i wanted to buy sports shoes for new year and she screamed at me and gave me a slap cs i criticised her way of dressing which really was so MEENA!
and my auntie threw a bottle right at my head cos i didnt want to stop doing my Qingdao's homework!SO UNREASONABLE!
and my uncles wife called me old fashioned cos i didnt want to put on a mini skirt and insist on wearing cargo pants!
NOBODY RULE MY LIFE!
I RULE IT!
BITCHES!

and ssry if i may get too hyper sometimes...
cos i dont get to do it often now...
and onli for a short period of time.

u may think i am so explicit and rude but i dun bloody fucking care!

I WILL NOT SHED A TEAR FOR THOSE I HATE.
COS I'LL BE KNOWN WEAK!
I WILL ONLY SHED A TEAR FOR THOSE I LOVE.
I SHALL NEVER BE KNOWN WEAK!
ALTHOUGH I AM ONLY BUT A GIRL, I KNOW I CAN SHOW BOYS THAT GIRLS WLL NEVEERE NEED TO DEPEND ON THEM USELESS CREATURES.WHO THINKS WE GIRLS ARE WEAKLINGS!
WHY AM I GIRL?

I HATE MY LIFE!

laughters of fraud

ans so~

2008-01-07T02:43:00.000-08:00

MY EVER SO BEAUTIFULLY DARLINGEST SEXY VOICE IS BACK!
Today then is like my first day of school...
zzz~
CLASS SUX like hell!
NIGEL IS TALKING FUCK CRAP ALL THE WHILE AND I HATE MY SEATING POSITION!!!!
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
I HATE 3D!!!
boo~~
and... RAYMOND... u cant make hell for me, cos i RULE HELL!!!
oh ya BTW ,Thnks KIM and HAZIQAH for the OG thingy!!
& i HATE JEREMY!!!! I WANT DUTY WITH LIONEL!
& now i have to settle 4e1 in the morning!!!![purely sabo]
fine and haziqah made a very''nice''song for me, so NOT thank you!!!
I HATE 3D!
DAMN IT!
haixx~~
wats the god damn hell with me???
i didnt talk much in school today lar!
cos there's no one to talk to!
BITCH IT MAN!
& i am so not being my hyper self!
lols and Kaitat today then noe that i am dominic's cousin and jeremy's sister!
AND MY STUPID BROTHER WANT TO JOIN SCOUTS!
HE'LL REGRET!
GOODBYE AND TAKE CARE
SCANDALICIOUS PEOPLE ALL AROUND!
and raymond... congrats same art and chinese class!

orientation OVER!

2008-01-05T06:28:00.000-08:00

and i lost my beautiful ever so sexy voice. =(
and now what ...
of cos i know its not true...
never!

back~~

2007-12-28T05:10:00.000-08:00

hello!!!
Prefects BBQ was AWESOME!!!
though i felt that i actually got PISSED and was so damn ANGRY!!!
AQILAH & GANG= I FINALLY GOT ANGRY AND PISSED!
serious PMS !!!!
REALLY!
hahahx
its a lucky thing too u see...
i picked up 10 dollars that day!
wheex!!!
yupps!!
hahaha
day1~
nth much lah went shopping for stuff for BBQ.
and fetched haziqah upped!
and didn't slp till 5..
some freen lar.[william and hongwei]
4am become 4.30 then become 5 am!!!
diaoxx
and that HW and WN so horny so OMIGOSH!
haha
haziqah was actually afraid of them...
and it is so LOL~
DAY2~
weird lor also nth much one larh... seriously pissed lah me~
haixx...
BBQ...
also haix la...
wadeva also haiix la...
haixx...
some friend la some ppl~[jk]
and me and nurul chatted and hazel too~
hahahz
and then william and weibin[i anti-wushu one lor!!!] joined us~
and hahahaha!!!
haziqah... rmb ??
SCANDAL!!! SCANDAL!!!
sweetsweet...
hohoho
and william and his PUBLIC TOILET!
haha
weird...
kla~
enuff...
umm will post video sometime~^^

I'm BACK~

2007-12-14T01:15:00.000-08:00

hello ppl~
i'm back from China~~~
i dun feel like coming back lar...
[s0bbs]
[still in china mood/mode not switched back yet~]
ya it was okay la~
but WAY COLD~
sheesh i miss my buddy!!!

awww man~

kks~
ummms...
here's my trip report~
day1~
damn tired by the flight[S]
irritated by sec 1 boys~
and CHeH YEK LIANG!
arrived at hotel for a break and i headed for junlin and lionel's room to take a break!
then we went for lunch then headed for the 39middle school,met my buddy.
then headed for her house~
she stay in a condo,penthouse,6th floor!
no lift!
climed 6th stories up the building!
omigosh!
then had some dinner~
but wasnt feeling well...

day2~
went to school in the morning!
and came home in the night~
played with my buddy on the com...
hahas

day3!
still went to school
made friends in class...
watch the pacifier in buddy's home

day4~
still going to school.

day5!
HOTEL HOTEL!
here moi comes!!!

day6!
the performance~
our school dance was way better than theirs...
theirs was MESSY and HOrrifying!
CO-NO comments
Wushu-was good,except for ZHENNING!
ok...
who gives the damn.

day7~
had dinner!with Buddy!
my BIG LARGE MICKEY ARRIVES!
i am so HAPPY!~
hahahs
made that speech~ so nervous~
going to cry!
stupid yekliang sang~
made me wanna puke!
then went with all cl group ppl to sing~
wasn't main singer~
cause i went up reluctantly...
[but got most support!!!]

day8~
leaving QingDao~for Jinan
not feeling well...
feel like puking in the bus...
must be that cursed maggie noodles!
stopped to make KITES~
like so cool.
cant fly it though~
sry hazaiqah...
i destroyed your kite...
[s0bbs]
then after that in the bus puked...
mrs cheng took care of me the whole trip to weifang
arrived at weird hotel~
puked the 2nd time!
the hotel room weird weird de.
ongzhen and cichuan rom so scary!
OMIGOSH!
nvm..
didnt want to feel sick.
told myself to be stronger!!
but thanks everyone anyway.
thanks my homie and many ppl.
for helping me with my bags luggage and mickey and for your comforts.

day9.
left weird hotel and left for taian.
went to visit confucius home,temple and tomb...
kinda interesting.
i started being so obsessed with empredd cixi!!!
MUAHHAHAHAHAHS!
went to another hotel to stay!

day10
left for taishan in the morning~
took a cable car up.
and reached the almost summit of the mountain.
ate my juniors baked sweet potato.
hahhas[so bad]
and played snowball fight!!!
build tiny snowman.
and yes!!!!
zhenning got thrown with the snowball!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS
climbed down the mountain on steep slopes/steps
although not as steep as angkor wat's but it has 1000+++ steps!!!!
climb untill muscle cramp like hell... shit it man!
stupid wushu ppl...
call me luohan~
then i ran down the slopes...zoom~
untill i met hazeline...
fell once...
ouch!!!
then met with lionel...
then continue climbing down...
it never ends!!!!

day11~~
went shopping~
hahahs
bought things for sister and brother.
ate KFC
done alot of things.
muscle cramps.
gosh.
stupid BITCH!
damn u...
Fyou
but anyways in the end ongzhen changed back!!!
thanks ONGZHEN AND YekLians...
stupid bitch!!!
i hate you!

day12
BAK!
but i hate to be back!!!!!
WAHHS~!!!

Surprise surprise

2007-12-02T00:26:00.000-08:00

HII~
currently posting from computer in QingDao at Homestay Buddy's Home...
Cool ehhs???
dun miss me too much okkae~
enjoying time here...
DAMN cold...
hhahhahas
i talked to HIM ok...
dun ask miie too much though.
its a liitle difficult at first~

TOOK alot of photos...
upload it some time kkaes??
missed u all alot la!!!!
bUaiix~
i GTG...
dinner here soon...

geez~

2007-11-28T01:05:00.000-08:00

hahaha~
nth much to post...
i was just catching my korean drama serials
hahahs~
fine its lame i noe~
but its only 3 days away from going to QING DAO~
i feel so reluctant all of a sudden...
geez~ i dunno why...
HAHAHAS
DAD coming back to s'pore today...
heard he bought me a 100++ sports shoe from KAPPA as well as a 400== jacket...
which i'll most probably NOT WEAR!!!
maybe the shoes will wear but not the jacket!!!
could have spent the money on a new ipod NANO instead!!!
gosh DAD!!!!
fine------------
heard he also bought a PSP for my BROTHER CAUSE MY BROTHER MIRACULOUSLY DID BETTER THAN WE EXPECTED!!!!!!!!
GOSH!!!!
y didn't i have treatment like this during my PSLE period!!!!
SUX!!!!
another auntie who loves my irritating brothe 800dollars SING!!!
now i am wondering y everyone's so BIAS~~~
fine
NOW>> MOM wants bro in MJR!!!!
ahhhhh!!!!!
i cant take it anymore!!!!
hahahs
i go toilet liaos...
i wrote this post while waiting for my grama to come out of the toilet...
NOW she's out...
it's MY TURN TO USE THE TOILET!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
bUaiix~
=)loves,
PATTrick

MS quek~ so lame~

2007-11-26T05:56:00.000-08:00

so i was eating potato chips with jingyi and syahirah~
then ms quek came and wished me happy belated bday~
i asked her some qns if she was leaving school and she said yes~
next year july...
[s0bbs]
then i wondered how she knew it was my bday...
then i asked he how she found out...
then she said she got insiders information...
she said it is not what i think it is...
and i know what she thinks i am thinking which was not what i was thinking
and i knew what she was thinking i was thinking and actually i did think of that at first but i didnt really understand what the hell she thinks i was thinking~
and i feel that i think that what i am writing here is really lame~
now i am going to make things CLEAR with ms quek~

the presents...

2007-11-24T18:10:00.000-08:00

HAHAS all my presents~

and this is a very nice necklace~

try my best gift~
hahas~ greedy cheryl!!

POOH bear~ with my youngest cousin ~

ripples slipper from my BADAK sister,LYNN...i love the pink...

A cup from Aqilah~
it has got almost all the disney's character on it~
cool ehhs?

catherine and wenyi bought this for miie~ i LOVE it!!!

the hong bao's note~

an hongbao from mom' friend~ its mickey and minnie~~

haziqha's balloon~
it didn't survive~[s0bbs]

this is the show, i've been wanting to catch~
my sister gave it to muar~~

ticket from sha to the bands' concert~~

all my presents~

ifeel so lucky~
ya~
hahahs
someting i'm really happy about was gauri's and huda's msg from perth!!!
omg~
i am so touched~~
hahas

MY birthday~

2007-11-24T17:45:00.000-08:00

Couldn't catch any slp last night becaause Hp was flooded throught the night with bday greetings~~[esp* syarifah aqilah's 2.17.45am message~]

first thing iin the morning,yesterday, i went to school for the stupid QingDao briefing~
but before i went to school met up with [yawn]junlin and larry[HOHOHO]~
then hahahs made up some frozen shit jokes~
then got the boring briefing in which my parents didnt come:
dad-in china
mom- refuses to come as she thinks its rather rubbish~
then take the jacket and the backpack.
the jacket was very NICE~
but the backpack SUCK~ its damn UGLY~

eew~

then HAziqah gave me balloons~
and i later received some presents...
and then went out with catherine and wen yi~

we went to eat chwee kueh
and then we headed for army market~
we then shopped for some long john for catherine~
then from there we headed to Suntec City,ON FOOT....
hahas
shopped awhile...
looking at winter clothings~
cause that was our purpose~
we then decided to take a break at KFC...
hahas saw wilson and xin hwee...
stead sia~

lols...

hong wen frens la...

then we kinda discussed about something...
made our hair stand on ends sia~
esp. catherine...

hehehehe~
then we made our way to bugis...ON FOOT agn.
met with aqilah and i went off with aqilah instead.
catherine and wenyi were SUPPOSE to go home...
but they didnt
in the end..
SHA,WEIXING,LYNN,CATHERINE and WENYI...
gave me a SURPRISE party or something like dat behind the library...
hahas

kkeas

i uploaded the photos of all my presents~

lalalas~

2007-11-23T02:52:00.000-08:00

5 hours and 7 more minutes to my BIRTHDAY~
really really dun wanna go to school tml~
i noe i'm gonna DIE~~
[sobs]
fine~
but at least...
NO TUITION~
then MUAHAHAHAHAS!!!
cheryl RULES

i am the most famous female serial rapist...
potential victims:
-william.N
-Leonard.T
-then JUNLIN and Lionel~
muahahahahahas~
how the verii lame~

its all slow mo rapin'

hehehehes

Special ya noe~~~

2007-11-19T04:33:00.000-08:00

this is a very exclusive post to wish ALL~ my choir friends a safe and enjoyable trip to PERTH~

AS WELL AS

GD luck for yer performance~
i'll miss all of u:
-KIM[coconut sis]
i'll miss u kae?
ur coconut shld ought to think of miie~

-Gauri a.k.a BOB
i LOVE YOU BOB~
rmber my spongebob at toysrus 4 my bday kkeas??
I'll MISS UUE~

-HUda Mummie~
saya cinta padamu~ ibu~
i'll miss u too~
gd luck~

-Caroline~
gd luck babe
and enjoy ur trip hon~

-cheryl tang~
SUMO~
JIA YOU!!!
JIA YOU!!!

-Say Ngoh~
NIU NAI~~~~~
WO AI NI!!!
gd luck~~
safe trip~~
will miss u~

-Dionna~
bye bye~
see you~
GD LUCK kkaes?
best wishes from miie~

-Phone lay
hahas~
gd luck~Hpone Lay!

-did i misss out anyone?
sry if i did kkaes??
but anyways~
GD LUCK from miie to uue~

CRAP~

2007-11-19T04:23:00.000-08:00

so~ i know i havent been updating much~
but that is because i'm plain LAZY~
tday got prefect meeting~
totally CRAP~
HAHAz~
meeting was kindof~ CRAP!!!
welll wadeva lor~ miss wong was like, so CRAP
HAHAH
lols i so CRAP~
haha~
then got 1 hour lunch break~ went aljunied MAC~
So CRAP la~ market closed...
then alll kopitiam FULL~~
hahaz
then CRAPPED all the way to mac~
leonard,lionel and jeremy la~
BUT I HIT EVERYONE~
hahahahaha~ CRAP~

I'M A VIOLENT, VERY IMPOLITE AND CRAP PERSON~
SELFISH, MONSTROUS AND KINDOF VULGAR TOO~
VERY EXTREMELY INSENSITIVE TO OTHERS FEELINGS AS WELL~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH, THIS IS me.

lols~
seriously~

then it rained before we got back to MJR~
so had to take taxi~
$3.10
HAHAHAS

lols

then crapped someore in school~

really lame la

CRAP shit sia~

jeremy say he UNBEATABLE~
lols
sia~
made everyone laugh like siao~
he really CRAP lor~
ms wong BEAT him by her words~
[jeremy goes woof woof! at ms wong]
u get what i mean~~

SO TDAY is a CRAP day in SCHOOL...
HAHAS

BUAiiX~

MUMBAI ahhh~ INDIA~

2007-11-12T04:40:00.000-08:00

hahaha~
ytd was VERY INTERESTING~
muahahahaAs
Brunch was MUTHU CURRY~
so YUMMY~
while eating...
1 person was constantly in my mind...
guess who...
of course it'smy one and only BOB~
a.k.a Gauri Varsha Rai~
haha~
hehe~
hoho~
apparently i dunno why~
haha
THEN,went to Botanic Gardens ~~
sounds boring, but relly interesting...
muahahaas~
went to walk around~
still sounds borng ehhs??
haha~
then went catching TADPOLES~
haha~ I started the catching tadpole thing~
then we cathced BIGGER tadpoles~
the small tadpoles were like black SPERMS~
and the bigger ones were like transparent and apparently, u can see the insides[guts]
sick...
then we went to the HUGE eco pond...
then all my cousins and i decided we shld go into the water~
we went in...
water about knee deep only la~
then walked around the lake~
and there were alot of rocks,we were walking on the pond bed, full of rocks[ouch!!!]
and tiny sea snails~~~ ots and lots of tiny sea snails~
EEEEEEEWWWW~
imagine crushing so many of them under our feets~ eeew
fine~
then went chasing goose~
cathching tiny fishes~
hahah~
and i caught the BIgger Terrapin~
hahaha~
who else but miie~
fine~
then went to Dampsey road to eat BEN&JERRY'S HAHAHAHAHAAH~~

I LOVE TO EAT!!!!

yes i do love to eat~

and then went to wheelock's place~
for nothing~

then had ramen for dinner at wisma atria's food republic~
HAHAHAHAHAHA~

well that's about it~

do you know that 1,one,ONE packet of red bean at dampsey road costs 9DOLLARS~
well almost everything is EXPENSIVE there~
small packets of gummi bears costs 5DOLLARS+++
gosh~
it's really more for the europeans there la~

but it strucked me that i would need to MARRY a RICH men to fufill y dreams of EATING BEN&JERRY's AT DAMPSEY ROAD EVERYDAY and eating 9Dollars Red Bean and very expensivE GummiBears~~~
HAHAH~
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahhahahaha~~~~
ok fine~
BBBBBBBBBB~
bUaiixs~
Take CaRe

some random stuffs

2007-11-08T22:07:00.000-08:00

nothing to blog... so blog these~~

Your Linguistic Profile:

45% General American English

30% Yankee

10% Dixie

10% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and expressive, you were meant for Paris.
The art, the fashion, the wine!
Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...
You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

You Are 86% Feminist

You are a total feminist. This doesn't mean you're a man hater (in fact, you may be a man).
You just think that men and women should be treated equally. It's a simple idea but somehow complicated for the world to put into action.

Are You a Feminist?

i like this part~

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.
You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.
But you sure can beat a good drum.
"Kill! Kill!"

The Muppet Personality Test

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 60% Good and 40% Bad
Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.
But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

You are a New Age Girl!

You're bright, opinionated, and dedicated to changing the world.
Even if it's one hybrid car at a time, you do you part to make things better.
In fact, you may be so busy with your causes that you have little time for love.
Take an extra yoga class or two, and you just might meet New Age Guy!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

Never Date a Capricorn

Somber, demanding, and freakishly logical. Emotions? It's not clear that Capricorn has them.
And while it may be flattering for a Capricorn to be serious about you, bad news: they expect you to be super serious in return.

Instead try dating: Aquarius, Gemini, Leo, or Virgo

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.
You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.

Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love

Your gemstone: Citrine

Your flower: Chrysanthemum

Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

There's a 40% Chance You've Been Abducted By Aliens

Even though you have a few alien abduction signs, you're almost certainly in the clear.
However, if aliens ever do come to your neck of the woods... they'll probably be coming for you!

What Are the Chances that You've Been Abducted by Aliens?

You Are a Light Pink Rose

You represent sweetness and grace.

Your vibe: Kind and gentle

Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend

What Color Rose Are You?

Your EQ is 100

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?